Hey big sis,
I noticed something. The word "Epic" is becoming very common in my daily speech. Everytime I try to do something I try to make it epic in some way or at least convince myself that something mundane that i am doing is epic. Enough of that sillyness.

Frightmare is over, heading to the cast party in a few hours to drown myself in pig. I really like pig. Pictures to come.

I know I try not to get personal here but I might as well go ahead and say That my relationship with callie has been over for a while and she has moved out. I broke it to her easy and we have been able to be civil/friendly.

After she moved out I started dating someone new, no details here, just know that i am very happy.

For now I am off, need to look my best for the great pig frightmare feast.

there is too much on my plate
too many projects
too many friends to keep happy
too much work that has to get done
too many health promoting activities i have to do
too many promotional activities to do
too many events i have to show up at
too many new people to meet and recruit
too many rumors to deal with
too many pages to write

When October is over and the Frightmare concludes for this season I am taking a bit of "Me" time and going on some kind of trip the hell outta this area.

I never get this burned out, then again i have never been this ambitious towards my life. I am starting to think a few of those people who like to give me advice even when i dont ask for it may have been onto something. Perhaps I am trying to do too much at once but at least one major consumer of my time is almost over.

I am not unhappy though, quite the opposite. Probably the happiest I have ever been.

Well maybe next time I will write up something here that makes a bit more sense.

Good morning big sis,

We have begun construction on The Frightmare. I love working with my hands, so much more rewarding. Unloading the trucks was a cinch this time around, I guess working out all the time is paying off. Now getting up at 6am everyday when im used to getting out of bed at 9 is something i will have to get used to. It would seem I have had more responsibility thrust upon me this year. Ed has been letting me design the entire event this time around but I think its just so if anything goes wrong he can blame me. I dont actually think this, he told me this. I love that man. I have managed to be able to work construction there and my regular job but only because my regular job is still giving me shit for hours. Oh well, at least I will be able to pay bills.

We are doing a few other things differently this year, I brought Rachel Riot and her newly assembled team on board and they are going nuts on the promotional campaign. Looks like we are gonna turn the dance team idea into something really worth seeing.

So thats the major thing I am doing. Of course I am still working on the film stuff. In what little free time I have right now I am shooting short films. Something to help us familiarize ourselves with the process of filming and editing. Editing just one of the shorts took me about 30 man hours (most of that was watching final cut pro tutorials). Havent given up on Going Feral, just gonna take more time than I wish it would.

There are other projects in the works at the moment as well. New burlesque troop, putting together a variety show, getting back into playing music, and all other sorts of sillyness.

Social life is taking a dive though, dont really have the time to go out and party like I used to and I dont miss it. I have a few ongoing conflicts as well. Roomie and I are butting heads again. I have been living with the guy for a year now and I am thinking that perhaps its time for a change of address. Not right now though, but probably before the end of the year.

Thats all for now
Take care

Hi big sis,
My favorite time of the year is vastly approaching. Frightmare time. From September 1st til early November I will be building the biggest haunted house we have ever done and then using it to terrify the masses. I just got the green light from my favorite male role model to start. Now I have to pull together all of the people I have been recruiting for the last year and employ the cream of the crop. Since I wont be using anyone from any past year I have alot of training to dish out. Plus this year I have to put together the Frightmare dance team. Its a damn good thing I have been getting buddy buddy with so many burlesque dancers. I do love to stay busy.

Last entry was a bit depressing, I was kicking myself for a while about the whole event and even though I am in a bit of a bind now moneywise I am trying to keep at it. A large number of friends came together after that entry to pledge their support and help me with future endeavors. Something I will need and there is much to promote on the horizon.

I have always liked putting together entertainment and after looking at my life I seem to have been doing so for a number of years. I am not going to throw in the towel after one night of losing money, even though we lost money you should see what some people have said about it.

http://goodnightraleigh.com/2009/08/halloween-in-august-tremendous-time/

The Goodnight Raleigh gang came out and took pictures and wrote up an article on us. I love these guys and the message their site promotes.

You know, I havent written about my personal life in a while and think I am gonna keep it that way. My new tactic in dealing with my personal life is to fill my life with so many productive projects that I have no time or need for a personal life.

Til next entry
your brother

Hi big sis
I have some sad new for you today. I just got home from my most recent major fundraiser and not only did we fail to raise money we are now in the hole.

So I really have to ask myself at this point, why in the hell am I even trying to do this? I am starting to think that perhaps this project is just a bit too big for me to handle. I dont have the support that most other indy film makers have and the community as a whole doesnt like me very much.

I feel like someone who can never obtain the greatness in life he desires but is unable to accept anything less. My philosophy of "if its not epic its not worth it" applies to everything in my life including life itself. The constant barrage of let downs and delays and broken promises may have just sent this down the drain.

It wasnt all bad mind you. Its not like nobody showed up. Before we even opened the doors to the public we had forty people inside, most were part of the various bands and acts or the vendors and some were with me to help run it all. By the end of the night we probably had another seventy people there showing their support to the cause or just there to wish Miss Rachel Riot a happy birthday. The show itself while delayed went better than i would have ever expected. The burlesque girls were fantastic, The solo guitarist "Hickry Hawkins" was hilarious, though I usually cant stand honkytonk. Left Outlet and Of Color were amazing. I had plenty of people jumping up and down to sign onto the film and spent alot of the night having to answer questions. We stirred up quite a bit of interest. The only complaint I got all night was from Matt Abrams because he couldnt identify the sex of the members of Of Color. They are a bit androgynous but I dont hold it against them, girls trying to be boys and boys trying to be girls isnt really something I have a problem with and when it comes down to it, their music was amazing.

The best part of it though was Rachel. It was also her birthday gathering and she really is one of my best friends. One of the few humans I always enjoy spending time with and never have to pretend to care about.

However in the end the bad outweighs the good in the fact that this film will never see the light of day so long as I am forced to rely on this community to make it happen. No matter what I am going to have to delay once again and I have noticed that everytime I am forced to delay I lose a good number of people. Seems most around me give up at a hint of setback so I have to now wonder if there is something wrong with me for not giving up.

Hey big sis,
Goodnight Raleigh, a website of some prestige in this area, did an interview on us and you should check it out.

http://goodnightraleigh.com/2009/08/the-halloween-in-august-extravaganza/

Wish us luck this weekend

Love
-Your brother

Hey big sis.
Sorry for the lack of letters as of late, I have been running nonstop for weeks now and havent really had a chance to do much letter writing. Lucky for both of us I finally have a bit of time while I am recovering from the latest string of directionless adventures.

I know I told you that I was working with a burlesque troop however that has finally come to a close for the time being. Its a long story but I might as well tell it. After the USO show we did where I was "Uncle Sam" the troop developed a few issues. The lovely Miss Rachel Riot, an old friend of mine and the reason I was a part of the show, was the one responsible for not only putting the project together but running it as well. It would seem a few members of the troop had other plans. I am not sure how those girls pulled it off but my good buddy was usurped from her position. I was not happy to see such a good friend of mine robbed of her work, it had an all too familiar sting. After all I do know first hand what its like.

Regardless of the troops efforts to cut its own head off Rachel showed no pause in her continued work in the field. She invited me to join her in Charlotte a weekend or so ago and perform on stage. Now I may be a part time actor but I can dance to save my life. Rachel was aware of this and had other plans for me. We arrived at our venue for the evening and i proceeded to open up a tab at the bar. Rachel busied herself with the shows preparations, she wasnt running this one and it was with a totally different group of dancers but there was still plenty to do. After a few Blue Moons to take the edge off I stumbled upon the camel guys. Free cigarettes always lighten the mood. Time passed and the crowd began to fill the club. It wasnt long before I made a few new friends and fully loosened up. I wasnt set to go on til after their intermission so I wasnt in any hurry to prepare. After about 4 beers I strolled to the bar to grab yet another, the moment I arrived I felt a tap on the shoulder. I turned to see one of my old flings staring at me with a smile. Seems no matter where I go in this state there is someone I know. We exchanged a warm embrace and proceeded to to shots of Grey Goose on her tab of course. The show was going strong by this point. I took my seat to watch my friend put on her first act. By watching her you would never guess she had no formal training. I was mesmerized by her briefly until I reminded myself that this was my friend and drunken hormones need not enter the equation. After her performance I grabbed one more beer from the bar and greeted my friend so that we might prepare for for our performance. The time eventually came for me to go out onto the stage. The copious amounts of nicotine and alcohol destroyed all nervousness as per their intent. I was sitting in a chair on stage, cigarette in one hand, beer in the other. Rachel came out and began to dance around me. I ignored her until she began advancing onto me. I brushed her off but she would not relent. Moments later i felt her ankle on the side of my neck and one quick movement later I was no longer a member of the living. She took my cigarette and beer from my now lifeless body and finished the act. I never understood why but I love stage deaths. The night ended with cokeheads and stippers and trying to keep a watch out for my now very much passed out companion. One of the best nights of the year.

After returning home I set my sights on other more local adventures. With my friend Jamie Dude in town the options were quite open. We did everything from clubbing to camping. Nothing too eventful or productive but still worth mention.

Eventually I got word from Rachel that she was having one last performance with her local troop. She asked me to join her and give a repeat of our Charlotte act. How could I refuse? I arrived at the club in my best suit and died with the best of them. Spent most of the time backstage trying to keep my friends spirits up. After all we were surrounded by the very people who took her project and that couldnt have been easy for her. The show went off without a hitch and there was much rejoicing.. and drinking. After a waffle house trip and brisk walk through downtown I called it a night. That might just be the last time I ever set foot on that stage but I left it happy and I hope Rachel did too.

Last night... there was a plan. A plan to gather as many of my friends together and set off into the woods to commune with nature. I had the next day free from labor so I thought the timing was perfect. It would seem however the weather doesnt give a flying Philadelphia fuck about my schedule. Stuck at my home with the few brave souls willing to camp with me and without any desire to camp in the sludge we were forced to do what any group of self respecting people in their mid to late twenties would do.. get hammered and have a blast. I wont bore you with play by play of beers, shots, and standup comedy but it was a good time. Rachel and I amanged to get a few hours of sleep while "Wristcutters" was playting on my machine. After the film we just couldnt seem to get back to sleep. Coffee was in order. We visited a local coffee shop for breakfast and caffeine. To our shock we discovered that something unusual was happening in Raleigh. The President of the United States if America was coming for a visit. We couldnt pass up the chance to see the man himself. After returning home and an unsuccessful rally of our drunken passed out comrades we set out to join the event. Parking at Cameron Village left us with a short walk to the path of the motorcade. Along this path we discovered all sorts of commotion. It would seem the locals were none too happy about Mr Obamas current plan for healthcare. As a fan of the idea of universal healthcare I couldnt see what the big problem was. They were bitching about new taxes but it stood to reason that no longer having to pay a huge premium on their health insurance would probably make up for that. The scream that this was "Socialism" but upon inquery none of them could give me a correct definition of this concept or why it was bad. My tattoo did not make me a popular guy. Of course I felt the need to be an ass to these poor mislead souls. However my rage didnt kick in until my partner in crime and I were talked down to by a lady and her daughters each holding very offensive signs. One of them tried to state that America was a christian nation. That was just not going to fly with me. Eventually this girl told me I should be banned from the country for being an atheist. Fuck you religious right, this is war. Rachel was none to thrilled with the old lady bitching about her smoking. All of our combined anger for these sad examples of humanity were hushed by the incoming motorcade. I have to admit, I have never in my life been six feet away from the president. I was a bit awestruck as I easily made out his face in his sweet set of wheels. I dont really understand why I felt a sense of joy just by seeing the man so close and in person. Made me remember the fact that when it comes down to it I am a patriot. Maybe not the best one but I do love my land. We left the gathering with a sense of pride.. and slight fear of the rednecks I had been heckling. I came home with a smile on my face and a camera filled with some of the scariest images my machine has ever captured. Nothing gets under your skin like seeing a ten year old girl holding up a sign that says "What would Ronald Reagan do". At the same time nothing brightens your day like seeing another little one holding a sign stating "Hello Mr president, My name is Ashley". It was soo adorable and pretty much made up for all the messages of hate being thrown around.

If you want to see the images of these events check out my Facebook, they are all there.

I dont really want to write about anything else in this post, maybe next time I will give a more domestic letter. I hope you are doing well big sis and kiss that nephew of mine for me.

Your loving brother
--KLM

A short update for ya. Once again I keep forgetting I have this thing. Facebook tends to dominate my limited time online.

Lets see... I was uncle sam at a USO burlesque show, I looked silly im my uncle sam suit but i do miss the hat, pix on my fb. My band "Bitches Unite" started a holiday entitled "No Panties Day". We celebrated it at the club, I doubt you wanna see the pictures. I spend almost all of my limited social time with my friends Erin and Laura. Work keeps cutting my hours, the serach for a second job does not go well however I have started fabricating props for the burlesque troop i work with. I am tempted to expand upon this since it could be a potential decent payoff. Film work is still going but still in preproduction. I have the talent, the plan, most of the gear, however we still dont have that financial kick start to begin shooting. I hate money. I started doing some video work for my friend Poe for his DJ nights. Splicing together various video clips to have something in the background to play. Its giving me more practice at the fine art of video editing. Oh I almost forgot. My production company did get our first successful film gig when we recently shot the burlesque show. I have been editing that as of late as well and working with bad lighting is not my friend. At least we are learning.

Dont know what else to say really. I am keeping busy or at least trying to. Now I have chicken wings to devour and cigarettes to smoke. Oh and im still with that actress girl. More than a month solid now, I am losing my touch....

Good morning big sis,
Had sometime before I felt like passing out so I figured I would throw out an update. Been a crazy past couple of days.

Friday I ended up in charlotte for Nine Inch Nails and Janes Addiction. I know, dont yell at me but yes if i can make it to charlotte i should be able to come visit but the problem with that is I didnt drive and convincing people to take me some place they already were planning to go is a hellofalot easier than trying to talk someone into driving me someplace they dont want to go. I really dont want to have to borrow a car either, last few times I tried that it didnt exactly work out well. Anyways It was Nine Inch Nails so I figured you would appreciate that, after all you got me into that band when I was knee high. Show was great btw. Went out there with Poe, Jynxx, and the girlfriend and not one of us left unhappy. JA kinda blew but I didnt care. Came home late that night and passed out. Saturday was another great day.

Callie took off early to goto one of her larp events. If you dont know what that is imagine a large group of people playing dungeons and dragons only dressing and acting their parts over a large gaming area. I tried doing those once but found I hated the people involved. Anyways, I try not to knock her for it, just because I think something is lame doesnt mean I should pass judgment on others. So I was left with a day and night to myself. I started out by interviewing another newcomer to the ranks of Boneland Productions. After that I teleported to downtown Raleigh for a free show. Turns out the free show was for none other than the band "Filter" who I loved as a teenager. I never got the chance to see them live so I was pretty stoked. I showed up alone but it didnt take long to meet up with a shitload of random friends. They played the song "skinny" which is one of my favorite songs of theirs, always related to it for having been the skinny kid that got picked on back in those days. Came home after the show with a smile on my face and passed right out. Sunday was oddly enough the most interesting of the days.

Started out with Callie coming home and waking me up, this prompted me to sleep for a few more hours when I probably shouldnt have. After all I had big plans. Boneland Productions was throwing a BBQ in my backyard and I had alot of preparations to take care of. I sent a few people out to procure some of the needed supplies while i setup the grill and tried to be a halfway decent host. I was just planning to have over those of my friends that are involved in our film project but of course several uninvited guests arrived. The guy living on my couch is dating an ex friend of mine so he invited her along and she brought her friends. I stopped being friends with this girl because I still cant stand two faced people. Of course drama had to happen. All I wanted to do was grill meat and drink beer and be silly with those I am close to and instead I had to deal with bullshit. When she stared accusing one of my male friends there of slapping her I pretty much just stopped paying attention and went back to trying to enjoy my evening. Aside from that it was a good cookout. The masses were fed, several coolers of beer were annihilated and the trampoline was filled with random acts I wont mention. Afterwards I had some drunken cleaning and yelling with my main roomie. The man is touchy about his sandwiches but I cant blame him for that. I do love a good sandwich. All in all a great weekend.

So yea, I know thats probably not much of interest. I should write to you more about the inner workings of my life and all that jive but I tend to keep most of that to myself. I guess I got in the habit of being secretive and introverted to the point that now when I dont even have a reason to do so I still carry the concept on. Really, other than random weekends and crazy projects my life is pretty boring. I still cook all the time, watch House MD, spend time with the girlie, and have random nights of video games and the abuse of nicotine and caffeine. My drinking is so sporatic that its hardly worth mentioning, my work is so boring and degrading that its really not worth mentioning, and my social life just isnt that interesting anymore. I guess what im trying to say is that im alright and other than the string possibility of declaring bankruptcy all is well in the world.

Love ya much
-whatever my name is these days

Hey big sis
A quick update before I go off to be on the radio. I gotta say its probably the most enjoyable job I have had to date. Being an ass on the radio for two hours a week kinda feels like a calling for a slack cynical bastard such as myself. Too bad I am forced to supplement my income with actual work during the week. Cell phone is back up and running so give me a call since you never answer your phone.

Well the girlie moved in with me... I gotta say its odd. She left her own apartment in battery park (that in NYC) to come slum it up with me here in my hometown. I must have done something right. We seem to make one another happy so i suppose its a good thing.

Movie stuff is moving slow. We cant do much more at this point without our funding and fund raising is as always a slow process. Would be soo much easier if we qualified for a grant but my efforts to live off the radar have thrown a wrench into that and damn near everything else. Its a catch 22, I cant go back on the radar until i take care of a few financial issues and I cant make that kind of money without going back on the radar. Oh well, I shouldnt complain, when it comes down to it problems or not I do love my life these days.

So how is my nephew? I saw his shots on your facebook. Totally looks like you. I keep meaning to come down there and visit but its a problem of taking off from work on a day when i have transport and I honestly need every hour i can get just to maintain my life.

well i gotta get ready for the Phantom Frequency.
Lots of love
-Lee

Hiya big sis,

Sorry I haven't written much as of late. I havent been up to par healthwise. I landed myself with a pretty nasty kidney infection. I gotta say, cranberry juice is horrible. I "acquired" some antibiotics so its clearing up. I found the idea of buying underground antibiotics a bit different. Usually people just want to get pain pills or other recreational substances but leave it to me to use illegal methods to acquire medicine for its intended use. I am not even sure if that is illegal. Either way its a hell of alot cheaper than going to a doctor with a general lack of health insurance.

In other news my grand fundraiser in gboro has been canceled. The guy who was putting it together for us bitched out on us due to some kind of complications with his venue. I suspect foul play and bag of douche interference however in the end it probably wasnt going to be worth the effort and none of our acts wanted to go anyways. Instead we are going to be doing something a bit different for fund raising in the next month. We recently gained a connection to a ritzy country club in wake forest that caters to those of us with far too much money. So we are putting together a silent art auction and open bar fund raising event for the film. Its going to take a hell of alot of work and quite a bit of money to put together but I am confident we can pull it off.

Oh, I recently became a guest host on a local radio show. Seems that being a filmmaker means I have something to say so now every monday night I am on the radio. I will send you a link to the live net stream since you are probably way out of range for your radio to pick it up. Its alot of fun I have to say.



Also, the girlfriend is moving down my way in a few days. I am a bit nervous about that but who knows, it might just work out in my favor for a time...

Cell phone should be back on by the end of the week, it sucks when you have to make the choice between groceries or talk time but when it comes down to it I cant live without food yet. Work has been picking up again so hopefully my money problems will fuck off. Right now im working running patch cable through office buildings. Its not a great job but it will work for now.

I want to come visit you and meet my nephew sometime soon. I am right now without a car of my own so it is a bit difficult but I will see who I can bribe by the end of the week.

For now I gotta run, hope to see you soon

-The Kapt'n

Hey big sis,

Time for another letter. I have something a bit odd to talk about this time around. Its no secret I have begun remaking old friendships and associating with other people from my past. The bulk of them who I havent seen in years keep telling me that I am different. Other than getting over some severe crazy I havent really noticed a change in my personality but people keep claiming one is there. Just recently I started hanging out with this girl Genevieve. I never really knew her all that well from back in the day but we swam in similar circles. I did meet her once a few years back when she was dating my buddy jamie dude and apparently i did not give off a very good impression. To top that off she had heard all kinds of horrible things about me from one of my ex's. So yea, this girl had every reason in the world to think i was a pure bastard. Well I ended up meeting up with her again through a mutual friend and we just sorta became buddies. She keeps telling me that I am not the same person she met and heard about. I dont get it. There is more to that story but this isnt the place for it. This kind of trend has been popping up with many people though.

So apparently I have changed and havent noticed.

Well it looks like my plans for the weekend are going to be altered due to this storm. Cant very well layout the set and do all the blocking work in this weather. I am not doing a rehearsal either this weekend. Probably gonna spend some time with the new girlfriend and maybe get some work done here and there.

Oh, did do something interesting today. I carried a human skeleton over my shoulder down hillsborough street, wasnt trying to get any looks or anything... just had to go meet up with an artist friend of mine so we could make plaster molds of the bones. We are going to need a shitload of the things for the film. I wish i could do this job full time. The search for a financial backer continues.

Hey big sis,


Thats a shot from the latest rehearsal. About half the cast and crew that showed are pictured there, unfortunately i couldnt get them all there at the same time. We are holding the latest version of the script. Let me know if you want me to send you a copy, it may not be your kind of story but from what everyone tells me its a good one.

The rehearsal went pretty well save for one incident where one of the kids threatened another and i was forced to remove them from the group. I understand all too well that most of us are nuts but im getting too old to be putting up with the violent kind of nuts. Its not like im short on people, in the past week i have had a dozen or so more people sign onto the cause, even this chick who does one of those nude maid services. I do like collecting oddballs and throwing them all into the same room though im starting to wonder if thats a bit irresponsible. Oh well, I have a few big scary ex military guys on the scene to handle whatever security issues pop up. One of them is build like an action figure and im always looking for the lever in his back to activate his karate chop action.


After the cast meeting died down i took off for Ed's place. You remember Ed from the frightmare right? I still hang out with that whackjob as much as possible. Anyways I went there to pick up one of the frightmare human skeletons, we need to make molds of the bones for a scene in the film. Well when i got there he was having a cookout party. I love this job. Everything little motion turns into an adventure that spawns some kind of entertainment. So yea, stuck around for a while and filled up on really good food. After that the people that brought me there wanted to see a movie so we hit the 1.50 theater. I keep forgetting that place is still around but it probably has something to do with the sheer amount of shit movies that have been coming out as of late. I may not have hollywoods budget or army of highly trained technical minions but I will be damned if any film I makes story cant top these bullshit movies they are putting out. Wow I am rambling.

Well for now im off, I have a dinner meeting with the higher ups of this project and I do love dinner.

Oh, that whole relationship I was talking about last time. Its going strong and im pretty happy with it. I dont even miss the swinger life.

Love
Your brother

Dear big sis
Getting word and the picture of your first born sent me into hysteria. I was running through my crowded home announcing the birth of the little one and making people look at the picture of him. I am so happy for you and your hubby and plan to try and be some kind of part in the little ones life. I dont plan to have any of my own... ever... so your family is about all the real blood family i will ever have. Scary aint it. Probably less scary than the idea of me breeding. If you need anything you should probably ask someone else but if your desperate you know im there for you.

Things are still pretty off the wall in my world. Now I know I have told you and everyone else that I was sick of the dating world and taking a break from it. Well I held on strong for a while until... Well now im in a relationship with an actress from new york. I met her on one of my casting drives and we clicked instantly. Spent a few days together before i made any kind of move. Last night was supposed to have been the last time i was going to see her for a few weeks so her and I and a group of friends went out to a kereoke bar for a night of sillyness. The moment i stepped into the bar the strangest thing happened, I noticed that i knew almost everyone there and almost in unison they yelled in my direction "BONES". Reminded me of Norm from Cheers except I had never set foot into this bar. We had a blast singing and being silly but eventually it was time to go home. I was dropped off first, she got out of the car to hug me goodbye and I just kissed her, turned away and walked to my front door. I went inside with a smile on my face. Of course then i checked my email and got your message about the little one. Well after the hysteria died down I sat back down to relax and noticed that I had a message from this girl. We chatted for a bit and agreed to meet up in the morning before she took a train back up north. The next morning I sat with her at the train station. It kinda felt like one of those classic black and white movie romances. Well in the end I have a girlfriend, and one i only get to see on the weekends. That honestly works for me due to my busy schedule. I am really going to put my all into trying to make this work, i have been out of the real relationship game for a while now and i couldnt think of anyone better to get back into the habit with.

In other news im going to a protest this Saturday, canceled film work for the day to join hordes of activists in a nutty idea. The plan is to kidnap ourselves and only be rescued by state officials and the media. Its to raise awareness about that fucker overseas who is kidnapping children and forcing them to fight in his own little private army or something of that nature. It just sounds like too much fun to miss out on.

Of course the film work goes on, unfortunately the new job isnt panning out like i hoped it would. Oh well, guess the search for steady employment continues.

Thats all for now, im tired and could use a bit of rest.

Lots of love
-Lee

Good morning big sis,
Well I had an almost adventure last night and I figured I would write about it. I went to legends for monday night goth night with my good buddy Lealah. I like going there on monday nights these days because there are usually not that many people there and as much as i like being social crowds still bother me. Well I showed up and the place had way more people than i expected. Turned out that one of my club associates just had her father put away for something like 140 years and they were celebrating. Kind of an odd thing to celebrate but i am sure she had her reasons, I just didnt bother to ask. Anyways I also went there to try and recruit new blood for the film. I sent my casting director out to meet new people and give them the speech. She struck gold at one point, got us two very attractive girls to sign onto the cause. Well I was drunk but i hope they were attractive lol. So yea, i sat down with them for a while discussing the ins and outs and all that jive. After about twenty minutes my casting director Jeri Ellen runs up to me telling me some kid named "Wolfie" wanted to kick my ass or something. I fell over laughing. Turns out I had never met this kid before. A fight at the goth bar, of course i didnt take it seriously but i couldnt stop laughing about it. Anyways I went into the main bar to chat with a few other friends and jeri ellen mentioned to them something about this kid who wants to fight me. The entire group at the main bar jumped up to go charge into battle with me. Once again I fell over laughing. So now I had a loaded group of angry goths wanting to start some shit with me and the convos just went downhill from there. Eventually they started letting out drunken battle cries such as "I am gonna pee on a fat bitch". That one was stated by a man who has achieved a new level of intoxication dubbed "Meat drunk". Dont ask, you dont want to know. So after I calmed the gang down and concluded my business there I went home. So yea, recrutied new people, laughed off the stupid people drama, and went home with a smile on my face. Have a picture of me with the gang



For now I have work to do and meetings to attend. Have a wonderful day big sis.

Love
Your brother

Hey big sis
So is the big day still coming up or has it already happened. I havent had my phone on in the last week. I tell ya, the price i pay for having a cell phone under the radar is an annoying one. I use cricket, they have this 50 a month unlimited everything plan. Its nice and all except for the fine print. First off if i am even an hour late they shut down my phone and i have to pay a 15 dollar late fee. Second they are always changing the day on which my payment is due and fail to notify me, I guess it would help if i provided them with a correct address or accurate name but as far as they are concerned my name is "Moist Von Lipwig" and I live in the forth circle of hell. I do like being call Mr Lipwig when i go there though. When I first got the thing I got a good laugh out of the service guy. I wonder how the post office deals with trying to deliver a letter to an imaginary place? Oh, and the coverage area sucks. I got no signal whenever i leave my home county. Thats just not very friendly for someone like me who travels quite a bit. Well here I am ranting about my cell phone when I should be asking you about the soon to be born or perhaps newborn nephew of mine. Send me a letter back and let me know whats going on or just call me or something. I promise I will try to make it out there after the rest of your guests have departed.

In other news.
I hired a new producer yet again. I have to admit I have begun to enjoy canning the ones that either wouldnt put forth the effort or were too greedy about it but this one i think will work for us. A real go getter she is. Not two days after signing her onto the cause she has already produced results and set other things into motion. Her work history and references were hilarious. Apparently she has worked as a personal assistant to various female porn stars. I swear, I love finding these nutty interesting people. Gives me hope for my own future. Rehearsals continue as does dialogue refinement. I am pulling in every creative mind I have ever known and doesnt want my head on a pike to help in this one. The Frightmare gang, Apartment J Productions, The Phantom Frequency. Dirge Factory, Various club DJ's, Local bands, a great music composer, hell... you name it I have called it in. With so many groups and brilliant people backing this project we are sure to prevail.

Have some silly pictures.

I could be the next Marlboro Man lol


Thats a terrible picture of me with DJ Poe and The Reverend Jynxx Midnite. These guys are like older brothers to me and some of my best friends.

Well thats enough for now. lealah is picking me up in a bit to run some errands and have some fun. Good luck big sis and I love you very much.

Hey big sis,
So another week til im an uncle huh. Guess I will have to make the time to come out there in the next few weeks. Getting around isnt the easiest thing for me due to the whole being poor thing but I will do my best. Out of the two of us I am glad it was you who spawned. Maybe at one point in my life I thought the idea of having children would be appealing but these days I dont really think its wise. I guess I just dont want to go through the stress of turning my life around in order to take care of someone. I just barely take care of myself as it stands. Anyways I know for a fact that you will make an incredible mother. We both got a first hand lesson in what not to do.

Well enough about all that.

We did our very first dry read of the script with 90 percent of the cast. I was so nervous going into it. It was the first time the majority of the people there got to read the entire script. I have to make a few changes here and there but the gang seemed to really enjoy it and are all about getting into their characters. In the next couple of weeks im going out to our shooting location to do the final scouting and begin laying out the set.

Oh, get this. I finally got a real IT job again. One of my DJ friends runs an IT business and hired me on. Since my own work has dried up to next to nothing and my savings are gone I jumped at the chance to work for someone I actually like as a human being. So I will hopefully be much more busy in the coming weeks. Looks like im going to be working some pretty odd hours and it wont be regular but hey, its better than nothing.

Well on that note. I gotta run. I have gotta figure out how to go about doing some laundry. Not having your own machine is a bitch to deal with and right now im car-less so no laundromat.

Hey big sis,
I went to an event this past night called "Temptation". It was a fetish prom. Probably not your kind of thing. People in tight black clothing exploring some of the darker facets of sexuality. For most of us though its really just the kinda thing to play dress up at, drink ourselves silly, and view people getting whipped on a cross. I have always had an interest in the darker and less socially acceptable sides of life so events like this are my bread and butter. You know you are partly responsible for this, getting me into bands like nine inch nails and type o negative before i had even hit puberty. I say that not to make you feel bad but to show you that people like you have taught me to keep an open mind and for that i am forever in your debt.

Its ironic that this event was called temptation. If you remember my last entry stated i was swearing off dating for a while so i could focus on my work. Well I had two fold the Temptation. On one end I brought that girl I was talking about as my date. I didnt want to come alone and it wasnt a serious real date. Just one of those lets accompany one another deals. The more I was with her the more I kept wanting to say screw it and just kiss the girl. I dont know how but even after multiple drinks I managed to keep my cool. She kept on tempting me throughout the night. I know im gonna cave if this goes on for much longer. The second temptation I dealt with was yet another girl. Someone I dated once a long time ago. She saw me and came up to me. Gave me one of those 10 second warm embraces that reminded me of everything i ever really loved about her and resparked all those dormant feelings. We flirted with the idea of hooking back up about a month ago however there was an obstacle. Her friends apparently dont really like me and told her if she had anything to do with me they wouldnt be her friends any longer. I told her they were bluffing and being overly dramatic but she bought into it. It really hurt me. She told me that her friends still wont cave. I was tempted to tell her to just say fuck them and go for it anyway.

Despite my brushes with Temptation at Temptation I still had a great time. They did a contest for prom king and queen. My date wanted to enter the contest and Lyria said it was fine. I think you would like Lyria. She is someone I look up to like family. Since we never really had much family I have noticed that in my adult life I sorta searched out and found people I looked onto as if they were blood tied. Anyways, back on topic. All of the couples got on stage. The guys were called out first. Lined up shoulder to shoulder we awaited crowd applause to choose the best of us. As the lined moved down to me I really didnt expect much of a response when it came my turn. I was fine with that. Well I was a bit shocked when Nathan called my name and the crowd cheered pretty fucking loudly. Made the cut to the final four guys. I guess I was shocked because I always assumed I wasnt very well known or liked. I stepped off stage with a smile. My date didnt do so well but when it came her time I screamed as loud as I could and got some of my friends to do the same. I guess thats all I have to say about Temptation.

Have some pictures, dont worry, no pigtails this time.


Filmmakers UNITE


Thats Poe, he is playing my lead villian in my film. He is like a big brother to me.


Thats me with my date,

Hey big sis, you are probably one of the only ones still reading this so I might as well write it to you.

Well I am very stoked about the film progress. We have taken a few rocky turns but so far we have held together. I had to let a few people go but plenty more showed up to take their place and it looks like i made out better in the end.

Recent adjustments to the script have gone over smoothly. I have been spending my free time this past week collaborating with a few very old friends of mine. As much as I love working with my friends in their thirties and my friends in their early twenties nothing beats working with people your own age. Breaking out laptops and beer and hammering out the fine print has become something I look forward to doing instead of a chore. I wish I had done things like this from the start. Something to remember for the next go round.

I am pretty nervous about this weekend though. We are doing a full dry read of the entire script this Sunday. I have only let out small chunks of it thus far so this will be the first time a large group of people will have read the thing. I hope they like it. Their reactions to the script will signify either another dramatic reconstruction or the green light to being shooting.

Tomorrow morning I am shooting my very first commercial for a friend of mines martial arts academy and at the same time another friend of mines radio show. A collaboration between the three of us for web promotion. I am kinda nervous about that too. I wont have my trusty cinematographer so I am handling the camera myself.

Enough about the film

Social life has been hectic as well. It would seem the scene around here has kicked themselves into high gear. A few days ago the dirge crew put on a three band goth show at volume 11. One band managed to turn the old konami code into a hilarious song. Another band managed to discover a frequency that made my ears bleed and at the same time manage to suck so badly that I couldnt really enjoy the last bands humor. All in all it was a good show just because of the people there. Thursday night was a wumpscut release party at legends. I kinda feel like I have been going there a bit much as of late and wouldnt mind cutting my attendance back a bit. By a bit I mean back to once a month. This past night I was at flex for another event by the dirge crew. Music for the masses with a trio of female DJs. I agreed to do something silly with my hair and it was fun. Tomorrow night im supposed to go back to Volume 11 for Dirge Factories "Temptation Fetish Prom". I gotta get there early to help setup but I dont know how late im planning to stay out. Honestly I have been exhausting myself and I have to get up early sunday morning, hit the history museum downtown for the pirate exhibit, and then do the dry read.

Oh yea, dating life. I have stopped it. With the film about to kick into high gear I dont have the time for it anymore. These casual relationships I have been having all year just dont really do me any good anyways so its high time I kicked the habit. I started to notice a trend, I would meet a girl, we would sorta hit it off and she would get involved with the film in some way. Something would happen between us either her fault or mine to put a stop to it (mostly very civil these days) and one of the side effects is losing that person in the film. There is this girl who I started palling around with and we really have hit it off. I am starting to like her quite a bit and have a feeling its mutual but we met under the terms of her being a part of the film and i dont want to screw with the status quo due to that whole setup. It was a difficult choice to make but I am really trying to be more of a professional about all of this and less of a hormone driven fuckup. It kinda sucks but I have learned that you just cant mix an amazing long term project like this with that brand of emotion. I really do like the girl too. So yea, focus on film, not on girls.

I havent posted any shots in here as of late so have a few hilarious ones.





Miss you big sis.

Guess what, I am going to talk about the film for a bit.

A very old associate threw a brilliant idea at me the other day and I ran with it. This idea has drastically changed the story of "Going Feral" and has had me spending every free moment in front of my computer making the needed changes to the script. I am taking a break from writing there now just to post this here. I was so impressed with this idea and the attitude of this old friend of mine that I hired him on. Looks like Boneland is getting a permanent visit from Apartment J. Since this collaboration began nothing but good things have been happening. I had so many problems with the last version of the script. The story was interesting but it just felt like it was lacking in many areas. I havent wanted to send out copies of it until I was able to find a way to solve those problems and now that I have I hope to begin dry reads of the thing this coming weekend. By then the edits should be done and thanks to Brian Allen the dialogue should be as witty and cynical as I have wanted it to be.

In other news.
Sports fans, what a nutty breed. I was in Chapel Hill last night on a work related venture when word got to me that there was a commotion outside. I went to investigate and discovered Franklin street swarming with kids in light blue shirts setting things on fire and jumping over them. What a sight. Cops were just standing back watching the chaos ensue. Never really known the law to be purely voyeuristic when mischief was afoot. I just had to join in the fun. Turns out the local college won some random sporting event that I normally could care less about and chose this method to celebrate their teams victory. I have never been a fan of the way sports are handled. Way too much money and energy are dumped into these events that only promote a handful of humans and keep the rest on their asses watching. Not my cup of tea. However to see the masses almost rioting, it just warmed my heart and for a moment and even I was glad that team had won just so things like this would happen.

I love it when life gives me a gift like that.


Now I should go back to the edits. As poorly as this entry turned out though I think I need to take a break that doesnt involve writing....