Good morning big sis,
Had sometime before I felt like passing out so I figured I would throw out an update. Been a crazy past couple of days.

Friday I ended up in charlotte for Nine Inch Nails and Janes Addiction. I know, dont yell at me but yes if i can make it to charlotte i should be able to come visit but the problem with that is I didnt drive and convincing people to take me some place they already were planning to go is a hellofalot easier than trying to talk someone into driving me someplace they dont want to go. I really dont want to have to borrow a car either, last few times I tried that it didnt exactly work out well. Anyways It was Nine Inch Nails so I figured you would appreciate that, after all you got me into that band when I was knee high. Show was great btw. Went out there with Poe, Jynxx, and the girlfriend and not one of us left unhappy. JA kinda blew but I didnt care. Came home late that night and passed out. Saturday was another great day.

Callie took off early to goto one of her larp events. If you dont know what that is imagine a large group of people playing dungeons and dragons only dressing and acting their parts over a large gaming area. I tried doing those once but found I hated the people involved. Anyways, I try not to knock her for it, just because I think something is lame doesnt mean I should pass judgment on others. So I was left with a day and night to myself. I started out by interviewing another newcomer to the ranks of Boneland Productions. After that I teleported to downtown Raleigh for a free show. Turns out the free show was for none other than the band "Filter" who I loved as a teenager. I never got the chance to see them live so I was pretty stoked. I showed up alone but it didnt take long to meet up with a shitload of random friends. They played the song "skinny" which is one of my favorite songs of theirs, always related to it for having been the skinny kid that got picked on back in those days. Came home after the show with a smile on my face and passed right out. Sunday was oddly enough the most interesting of the days.

Started out with Callie coming home and waking me up, this prompted me to sleep for a few more hours when I probably shouldnt have. After all I had big plans. Boneland Productions was throwing a BBQ in my backyard and I had alot of preparations to take care of. I sent a few people out to procure some of the needed supplies while i setup the grill and tried to be a halfway decent host. I was just planning to have over those of my friends that are involved in our film project but of course several uninvited guests arrived. The guy living on my couch is dating an ex friend of mine so he invited her along and she brought her friends. I stopped being friends with this girl because I still cant stand two faced people. Of course drama had to happen. All I wanted to do was grill meat and drink beer and be silly with those I am close to and instead I had to deal with bullshit. When she stared accusing one of my male friends there of slapping her I pretty much just stopped paying attention and went back to trying to enjoy my evening. Aside from that it was a good cookout. The masses were fed, several coolers of beer were annihilated and the trampoline was filled with random acts I wont mention. Afterwards I had some drunken cleaning and yelling with my main roomie. The man is touchy about his sandwiches but I cant blame him for that. I do love a good sandwich. All in all a great weekend.

So yea, I know thats probably not much of interest. I should write to you more about the inner workings of my life and all that jive but I tend to keep most of that to myself. I guess I got in the habit of being secretive and introverted to the point that now when I dont even have a reason to do so I still carry the concept on. Really, other than random weekends and crazy projects my life is pretty boring. I still cook all the time, watch House MD, spend time with the girlie, and have random nights of video games and the abuse of nicotine and caffeine. My drinking is so sporatic that its hardly worth mentioning, my work is so boring and degrading that its really not worth mentioning, and my social life just isnt that interesting anymore. I guess what im trying to say is that im alright and other than the string possibility of declaring bankruptcy all is well in the world.

Love ya much
-whatever my name is these days

Hey big sis
A quick update before I go off to be on the radio. I gotta say its probably the most enjoyable job I have had to date. Being an ass on the radio for two hours a week kinda feels like a calling for a slack cynical bastard such as myself. Too bad I am forced to supplement my income with actual work during the week. Cell phone is back up and running so give me a call since you never answer your phone.

Well the girlie moved in with me... I gotta say its odd. She left her own apartment in battery park (that in NYC) to come slum it up with me here in my hometown. I must have done something right. We seem to make one another happy so i suppose its a good thing.

Movie stuff is moving slow. We cant do much more at this point without our funding and fund raising is as always a slow process. Would be soo much easier if we qualified for a grant but my efforts to live off the radar have thrown a wrench into that and damn near everything else. Its a catch 22, I cant go back on the radar until i take care of a few financial issues and I cant make that kind of money without going back on the radar. Oh well, I shouldnt complain, when it comes down to it problems or not I do love my life these days.

So how is my nephew? I saw his shots on your facebook. Totally looks like you. I keep meaning to come down there and visit but its a problem of taking off from work on a day when i have transport and I honestly need every hour i can get just to maintain my life.

well i gotta get ready for the Phantom Frequency.
Lots of love
-Lee

Hiya big sis,

Sorry I haven't written much as of late. I havent been up to par healthwise. I landed myself with a pretty nasty kidney infection. I gotta say, cranberry juice is horrible. I "acquired" some antibiotics so its clearing up. I found the idea of buying underground antibiotics a bit different. Usually people just want to get pain pills or other recreational substances but leave it to me to use illegal methods to acquire medicine for its intended use. I am not even sure if that is illegal. Either way its a hell of alot cheaper than going to a doctor with a general lack of health insurance.

In other news my grand fundraiser in gboro has been canceled. The guy who was putting it together for us bitched out on us due to some kind of complications with his venue. I suspect foul play and bag of douche interference however in the end it probably wasnt going to be worth the effort and none of our acts wanted to go anyways. Instead we are going to be doing something a bit different for fund raising in the next month. We recently gained a connection to a ritzy country club in wake forest that caters to those of us with far too much money. So we are putting together a silent art auction and open bar fund raising event for the film. Its going to take a hell of alot of work and quite a bit of money to put together but I am confident we can pull it off.

Oh, I recently became a guest host on a local radio show. Seems that being a filmmaker means I have something to say so now every monday night I am on the radio. I will send you a link to the live net stream since you are probably way out of range for your radio to pick it up. Its alot of fun I have to say.



Also, the girlfriend is moving down my way in a few days. I am a bit nervous about that but who knows, it might just work out in my favor for a time...

Cell phone should be back on by the end of the week, it sucks when you have to make the choice between groceries or talk time but when it comes down to it I cant live without food yet. Work has been picking up again so hopefully my money problems will fuck off. Right now im working running patch cable through office buildings. Its not a great job but it will work for now.

I want to come visit you and meet my nephew sometime soon. I am right now without a car of my own so it is a bit difficult but I will see who I can bribe by the end of the week.

For now I gotta run, hope to see you soon

-The Kapt'n

Hey big sis,

Time for another letter. I have something a bit odd to talk about this time around. Its no secret I have begun remaking old friendships and associating with other people from my past. The bulk of them who I havent seen in years keep telling me that I am different. Other than getting over some severe crazy I havent really noticed a change in my personality but people keep claiming one is there. Just recently I started hanging out with this girl Genevieve. I never really knew her all that well from back in the day but we swam in similar circles. I did meet her once a few years back when she was dating my buddy jamie dude and apparently i did not give off a very good impression. To top that off she had heard all kinds of horrible things about me from one of my ex's. So yea, this girl had every reason in the world to think i was a pure bastard. Well I ended up meeting up with her again through a mutual friend and we just sorta became buddies. She keeps telling me that I am not the same person she met and heard about. I dont get it. There is more to that story but this isnt the place for it. This kind of trend has been popping up with many people though.

So apparently I have changed and havent noticed.

Well it looks like my plans for the weekend are going to be altered due to this storm. Cant very well layout the set and do all the blocking work in this weather. I am not doing a rehearsal either this weekend. Probably gonna spend some time with the new girlfriend and maybe get some work done here and there.

Oh, did do something interesting today. I carried a human skeleton over my shoulder down hillsborough street, wasnt trying to get any looks or anything... just had to go meet up with an artist friend of mine so we could make plaster molds of the bones. We are going to need a shitload of the things for the film. I wish i could do this job full time. The search for a financial backer continues.

Hey big sis,


Thats a shot from the latest rehearsal. About half the cast and crew that showed are pictured there, unfortunately i couldnt get them all there at the same time. We are holding the latest version of the script. Let me know if you want me to send you a copy, it may not be your kind of story but from what everyone tells me its a good one.

The rehearsal went pretty well save for one incident where one of the kids threatened another and i was forced to remove them from the group. I understand all too well that most of us are nuts but im getting too old to be putting up with the violent kind of nuts. Its not like im short on people, in the past week i have had a dozen or so more people sign onto the cause, even this chick who does one of those nude maid services. I do like collecting oddballs and throwing them all into the same room though im starting to wonder if thats a bit irresponsible. Oh well, I have a few big scary ex military guys on the scene to handle whatever security issues pop up. One of them is build like an action figure and im always looking for the lever in his back to activate his karate chop action.


After the cast meeting died down i took off for Ed's place. You remember Ed from the frightmare right? I still hang out with that whackjob as much as possible. Anyways I went there to pick up one of the frightmare human skeletons, we need to make molds of the bones for a scene in the film. Well when i got there he was having a cookout party. I love this job. Everything little motion turns into an adventure that spawns some kind of entertainment. So yea, stuck around for a while and filled up on really good food. After that the people that brought me there wanted to see a movie so we hit the 1.50 theater. I keep forgetting that place is still around but it probably has something to do with the sheer amount of shit movies that have been coming out as of late. I may not have hollywoods budget or army of highly trained technical minions but I will be damned if any film I makes story cant top these bullshit movies they are putting out. Wow I am rambling.

Well for now im off, I have a dinner meeting with the higher ups of this project and I do love dinner.

Oh, that whole relationship I was talking about last time. Its going strong and im pretty happy with it. I dont even miss the swinger life.

Love
Your brother

Dear big sis
Getting word and the picture of your first born sent me into hysteria. I was running through my crowded home announcing the birth of the little one and making people look at the picture of him. I am so happy for you and your hubby and plan to try and be some kind of part in the little ones life. I dont plan to have any of my own... ever... so your family is about all the real blood family i will ever have. Scary aint it. Probably less scary than the idea of me breeding. If you need anything you should probably ask someone else but if your desperate you know im there for you.

Things are still pretty off the wall in my world. Now I know I have told you and everyone else that I was sick of the dating world and taking a break from it. Well I held on strong for a while until... Well now im in a relationship with an actress from new york. I met her on one of my casting drives and we clicked instantly. Spent a few days together before i made any kind of move. Last night was supposed to have been the last time i was going to see her for a few weeks so her and I and a group of friends went out to a kereoke bar for a night of sillyness. The moment i stepped into the bar the strangest thing happened, I noticed that i knew almost everyone there and almost in unison they yelled in my direction "BONES". Reminded me of Norm from Cheers except I had never set foot into this bar. We had a blast singing and being silly but eventually it was time to go home. I was dropped off first, she got out of the car to hug me goodbye and I just kissed her, turned away and walked to my front door. I went inside with a smile on my face. Of course then i checked my email and got your message about the little one. Well after the hysteria died down I sat back down to relax and noticed that I had a message from this girl. We chatted for a bit and agreed to meet up in the morning before she took a train back up north. The next morning I sat with her at the train station. It kinda felt like one of those classic black and white movie romances. Well in the end I have a girlfriend, and one i only get to see on the weekends. That honestly works for me due to my busy schedule. I am really going to put my all into trying to make this work, i have been out of the real relationship game for a while now and i couldnt think of anyone better to get back into the habit with.

In other news im going to a protest this Saturday, canceled film work for the day to join hordes of activists in a nutty idea. The plan is to kidnap ourselves and only be rescued by state officials and the media. Its to raise awareness about that fucker overseas who is kidnapping children and forcing them to fight in his own little private army or something of that nature. It just sounds like too much fun to miss out on.

Of course the film work goes on, unfortunately the new job isnt panning out like i hoped it would. Oh well, guess the search for steady employment continues.

Thats all for now, im tired and could use a bit of rest.

Lots of love
-Lee

Good morning big sis,
Well I had an almost adventure last night and I figured I would write about it. I went to legends for monday night goth night with my good buddy Lealah. I like going there on monday nights these days because there are usually not that many people there and as much as i like being social crowds still bother me. Well I showed up and the place had way more people than i expected. Turned out that one of my club associates just had her father put away for something like 140 years and they were celebrating. Kind of an odd thing to celebrate but i am sure she had her reasons, I just didnt bother to ask. Anyways I also went there to try and recruit new blood for the film. I sent my casting director out to meet new people and give them the speech. She struck gold at one point, got us two very attractive girls to sign onto the cause. Well I was drunk but i hope they were attractive lol. So yea, i sat down with them for a while discussing the ins and outs and all that jive. After about twenty minutes my casting director Jeri Ellen runs up to me telling me some kid named "Wolfie" wanted to kick my ass or something. I fell over laughing. Turns out I had never met this kid before. A fight at the goth bar, of course i didnt take it seriously but i couldnt stop laughing about it. Anyways I went into the main bar to chat with a few other friends and jeri ellen mentioned to them something about this kid who wants to fight me. The entire group at the main bar jumped up to go charge into battle with me. Once again I fell over laughing. So now I had a loaded group of angry goths wanting to start some shit with me and the convos just went downhill from there. Eventually they started letting out drunken battle cries such as "I am gonna pee on a fat bitch". That one was stated by a man who has achieved a new level of intoxication dubbed "Meat drunk". Dont ask, you dont want to know. So after I calmed the gang down and concluded my business there I went home. So yea, recrutied new people, laughed off the stupid people drama, and went home with a smile on my face. Have a picture of me with the gang



For now I have work to do and meetings to attend. Have a wonderful day big sis.

Love
Your brother

Hey big sis
So is the big day still coming up or has it already happened. I havent had my phone on in the last week. I tell ya, the price i pay for having a cell phone under the radar is an annoying one. I use cricket, they have this 50 a month unlimited everything plan. Its nice and all except for the fine print. First off if i am even an hour late they shut down my phone and i have to pay a 15 dollar late fee. Second they are always changing the day on which my payment is due and fail to notify me, I guess it would help if i provided them with a correct address or accurate name but as far as they are concerned my name is "Moist Von Lipwig" and I live in the forth circle of hell. I do like being call Mr Lipwig when i go there though. When I first got the thing I got a good laugh out of the service guy. I wonder how the post office deals with trying to deliver a letter to an imaginary place? Oh, and the coverage area sucks. I got no signal whenever i leave my home county. Thats just not very friendly for someone like me who travels quite a bit. Well here I am ranting about my cell phone when I should be asking you about the soon to be born or perhaps newborn nephew of mine. Send me a letter back and let me know whats going on or just call me or something. I promise I will try to make it out there after the rest of your guests have departed.

In other news.
I hired a new producer yet again. I have to admit I have begun to enjoy canning the ones that either wouldnt put forth the effort or were too greedy about it but this one i think will work for us. A real go getter she is. Not two days after signing her onto the cause she has already produced results and set other things into motion. Her work history and references were hilarious. Apparently she has worked as a personal assistant to various female porn stars. I swear, I love finding these nutty interesting people. Gives me hope for my own future. Rehearsals continue as does dialogue refinement. I am pulling in every creative mind I have ever known and doesnt want my head on a pike to help in this one. The Frightmare gang, Apartment J Productions, The Phantom Frequency. Dirge Factory, Various club DJ's, Local bands, a great music composer, hell... you name it I have called it in. With so many groups and brilliant people backing this project we are sure to prevail.

Have some silly pictures.

I could be the next Marlboro Man lol


Thats a terrible picture of me with DJ Poe and The Reverend Jynxx Midnite. These guys are like older brothers to me and some of my best friends.

Well thats enough for now. lealah is picking me up in a bit to run some errands and have some fun. Good luck big sis and I love you very much.

Hey big sis,
So another week til im an uncle huh. Guess I will have to make the time to come out there in the next few weeks. Getting around isnt the easiest thing for me due to the whole being poor thing but I will do my best. Out of the two of us I am glad it was you who spawned. Maybe at one point in my life I thought the idea of having children would be appealing but these days I dont really think its wise. I guess I just dont want to go through the stress of turning my life around in order to take care of someone. I just barely take care of myself as it stands. Anyways I know for a fact that you will make an incredible mother. We both got a first hand lesson in what not to do.

Well enough about all that.

We did our very first dry read of the script with 90 percent of the cast. I was so nervous going into it. It was the first time the majority of the people there got to read the entire script. I have to make a few changes here and there but the gang seemed to really enjoy it and are all about getting into their characters. In the next couple of weeks im going out to our shooting location to do the final scouting and begin laying out the set.

Oh, get this. I finally got a real IT job again. One of my DJ friends runs an IT business and hired me on. Since my own work has dried up to next to nothing and my savings are gone I jumped at the chance to work for someone I actually like as a human being. So I will hopefully be much more busy in the coming weeks. Looks like im going to be working some pretty odd hours and it wont be regular but hey, its better than nothing.

Well on that note. I gotta run. I have gotta figure out how to go about doing some laundry. Not having your own machine is a bitch to deal with and right now im car-less so no laundromat.

Hey big sis,
I went to an event this past night called "Temptation". It was a fetish prom. Probably not your kind of thing. People in tight black clothing exploring some of the darker facets of sexuality. For most of us though its really just the kinda thing to play dress up at, drink ourselves silly, and view people getting whipped on a cross. I have always had an interest in the darker and less socially acceptable sides of life so events like this are my bread and butter. You know you are partly responsible for this, getting me into bands like nine inch nails and type o negative before i had even hit puberty. I say that not to make you feel bad but to show you that people like you have taught me to keep an open mind and for that i am forever in your debt.

Its ironic that this event was called temptation. If you remember my last entry stated i was swearing off dating for a while so i could focus on my work. Well I had two fold the Temptation. On one end I brought that girl I was talking about as my date. I didnt want to come alone and it wasnt a serious real date. Just one of those lets accompany one another deals. The more I was with her the more I kept wanting to say screw it and just kiss the girl. I dont know how but even after multiple drinks I managed to keep my cool. She kept on tempting me throughout the night. I know im gonna cave if this goes on for much longer. The second temptation I dealt with was yet another girl. Someone I dated once a long time ago. She saw me and came up to me. Gave me one of those 10 second warm embraces that reminded me of everything i ever really loved about her and resparked all those dormant feelings. We flirted with the idea of hooking back up about a month ago however there was an obstacle. Her friends apparently dont really like me and told her if she had anything to do with me they wouldnt be her friends any longer. I told her they were bluffing and being overly dramatic but she bought into it. It really hurt me. She told me that her friends still wont cave. I was tempted to tell her to just say fuck them and go for it anyway.

Despite my brushes with Temptation at Temptation I still had a great time. They did a contest for prom king and queen. My date wanted to enter the contest and Lyria said it was fine. I think you would like Lyria. She is someone I look up to like family. Since we never really had much family I have noticed that in my adult life I sorta searched out and found people I looked onto as if they were blood tied. Anyways, back on topic. All of the couples got on stage. The guys were called out first. Lined up shoulder to shoulder we awaited crowd applause to choose the best of us. As the lined moved down to me I really didnt expect much of a response when it came my turn. I was fine with that. Well I was a bit shocked when Nathan called my name and the crowd cheered pretty fucking loudly. Made the cut to the final four guys. I guess I was shocked because I always assumed I wasnt very well known or liked. I stepped off stage with a smile. My date didnt do so well but when it came her time I screamed as loud as I could and got some of my friends to do the same. I guess thats all I have to say about Temptation.

Have some pictures, dont worry, no pigtails this time.


Filmmakers UNITE


Thats Poe, he is playing my lead villian in my film. He is like a big brother to me.


Thats me with my date,

Hey big sis, you are probably one of the only ones still reading this so I might as well write it to you.

Well I am very stoked about the film progress. We have taken a few rocky turns but so far we have held together. I had to let a few people go but plenty more showed up to take their place and it looks like i made out better in the end.

Recent adjustments to the script have gone over smoothly. I have been spending my free time this past week collaborating with a few very old friends of mine. As much as I love working with my friends in their thirties and my friends in their early twenties nothing beats working with people your own age. Breaking out laptops and beer and hammering out the fine print has become something I look forward to doing instead of a chore. I wish I had done things like this from the start. Something to remember for the next go round.

I am pretty nervous about this weekend though. We are doing a full dry read of the entire script this Sunday. I have only let out small chunks of it thus far so this will be the first time a large group of people will have read the thing. I hope they like it. Their reactions to the script will signify either another dramatic reconstruction or the green light to being shooting.

Tomorrow morning I am shooting my very first commercial for a friend of mines martial arts academy and at the same time another friend of mines radio show. A collaboration between the three of us for web promotion. I am kinda nervous about that too. I wont have my trusty cinematographer so I am handling the camera myself.

Enough about the film

Social life has been hectic as well. It would seem the scene around here has kicked themselves into high gear. A few days ago the dirge crew put on a three band goth show at volume 11. One band managed to turn the old konami code into a hilarious song. Another band managed to discover a frequency that made my ears bleed and at the same time manage to suck so badly that I couldnt really enjoy the last bands humor. All in all it was a good show just because of the people there. Thursday night was a wumpscut release party at legends. I kinda feel like I have been going there a bit much as of late and wouldnt mind cutting my attendance back a bit. By a bit I mean back to once a month. This past night I was at flex for another event by the dirge crew. Music for the masses with a trio of female DJs. I agreed to do something silly with my hair and it was fun. Tomorrow night im supposed to go back to Volume 11 for Dirge Factories "Temptation Fetish Prom". I gotta get there early to help setup but I dont know how late im planning to stay out. Honestly I have been exhausting myself and I have to get up early sunday morning, hit the history museum downtown for the pirate exhibit, and then do the dry read.

Oh yea, dating life. I have stopped it. With the film about to kick into high gear I dont have the time for it anymore. These casual relationships I have been having all year just dont really do me any good anyways so its high time I kicked the habit. I started to notice a trend, I would meet a girl, we would sorta hit it off and she would get involved with the film in some way. Something would happen between us either her fault or mine to put a stop to it (mostly very civil these days) and one of the side effects is losing that person in the film. There is this girl who I started palling around with and we really have hit it off. I am starting to like her quite a bit and have a feeling its mutual but we met under the terms of her being a part of the film and i dont want to screw with the status quo due to that whole setup. It was a difficult choice to make but I am really trying to be more of a professional about all of this and less of a hormone driven fuckup. It kinda sucks but I have learned that you just cant mix an amazing long term project like this with that brand of emotion. I really do like the girl too. So yea, focus on film, not on girls.

I havent posted any shots in here as of late so have a few hilarious ones.





Miss you big sis.

Guess what, I am going to talk about the film for a bit.

A very old associate threw a brilliant idea at me the other day and I ran with it. This idea has drastically changed the story of "Going Feral" and has had me spending every free moment in front of my computer making the needed changes to the script. I am taking a break from writing there now just to post this here. I was so impressed with this idea and the attitude of this old friend of mine that I hired him on. Looks like Boneland is getting a permanent visit from Apartment J. Since this collaboration began nothing but good things have been happening. I had so many problems with the last version of the script. The story was interesting but it just felt like it was lacking in many areas. I havent wanted to send out copies of it until I was able to find a way to solve those problems and now that I have I hope to begin dry reads of the thing this coming weekend. By then the edits should be done and thanks to Brian Allen the dialogue should be as witty and cynical as I have wanted it to be.

In other news.
Sports fans, what a nutty breed. I was in Chapel Hill last night on a work related venture when word got to me that there was a commotion outside. I went to investigate and discovered Franklin street swarming with kids in light blue shirts setting things on fire and jumping over them. What a sight. Cops were just standing back watching the chaos ensue. Never really known the law to be purely voyeuristic when mischief was afoot. I just had to join in the fun. Turns out the local college won some random sporting event that I normally could care less about and chose this method to celebrate their teams victory. I have never been a fan of the way sports are handled. Way too much money and energy are dumped into these events that only promote a handful of humans and keep the rest on their asses watching. Not my cup of tea. However to see the masses almost rioting, it just warmed my heart and for a moment and even I was glad that team had won just so things like this would happen.

I love it when life gives me a gift like that.


Now I should go back to the edits. As poorly as this entry turned out though I think I need to take a break that doesnt involve writing....

I felt an odd impulse to write something about the current state of affairs. They look promising. Mind you I have had to deal with quite a bit of drama as of late from the film project. It would seem I am veiwing first hand the dangers of networking people together so that has been a bit of added stress but hopefully its being dealt with properly. Other than the drama things are somewhat going alright in the land of boneland productions. We have most of our gear together and after a few more random scraps of technology are aquired we will be ready for testing. Exciting times I suppose. We have another fundraiser event coming up May 29th. This one wont be in Raleigh. I met a promoter from the triad area of the state recently and made fast friends with him. He is setting us up at a venue in Greensboro and promises to deliver quite a crowd. I cant say i am too happy about going back to that town but when it comes down to it why the hell not. After all our film is in dire need of more funding. Speaking of funding... gotta love the current state of the economy. I just recieved another phone call from a friend of mine stating she was just laid off. That makes 10 in the last seven days. My own work has dried up to the point where if i am lucky I might make about 200 dollars a month and that just isnt cutting it. I never thought I would see tent cities or bread lines in my lifetime but acording to what I have been reading modern equivilants of these great depression fixes are starting to crop up.

So yea, movie stuff, work stuff, dealing with the drama, being poor, that about sums up my life at the moment.

For now I am off, spending less time online is doing me some good.

Since my last post I have thrown an event, traveled all over this damn country, and spent every moment i have working on "Going Feral". I dont really have the time I used to have to post here and goof off online as much so dont expect anymore frequent updates. What little goof off time i have is usually spent on facebook, its just more fun and used by a larger group.

Plenty of terrible things have been up as well but I wont go into detail. I never do after all. Thats the problem with a live blog. I cant go into detail on anything. Sure I can brag about some of the victories I have had in life but tooting my own horn gets old even for someone like me. Cant talk about the horrors and failures because it seems to encourage more of the same. I liked the idea of using this as a means to talk about the film work but I doubt the people who actually care about any of that read this thing since almost none of my friends use LJ anymore.

After thinking about it maybe this would work...

Life as always has been a series of triumphs and let downs each taking me further into old age. Seems to be about all I say here anyway. I guess I could rant about my love life... yea... fuck that. Its scary enough without me having to talk about it. I could talk about the book.. i cant even get the thing done with and out there due to an ongoing financial crisis that would have been solved If I just paced myself and didnt try to solve every life problem I have at once. That doesnt work either.


eh, for now im gonna finish listening to the phantom frequency and pass out.

I forgot I had this thing again. Been so busy as of late, so many changes have been made and I just survived some pretty horrific trauma. Yea Yea, I am not going to bother bitching about it all.

Feral Fest is just a few days away, dont forget to come out to Volume 11 this sunday for one hell of a show.

Sure I could write more but Its dinnah time.

I get way too personal with this thing at times so im going to try and chill out on that a bit.

The wisdom tooth is coming in but there is a change in its status, it started out impacting on one of my gold teeth and feeling a bit crooked. Then the swelling and pain started up. I couldnt talk for a day because of it. Popping aspirin helped take a bit of the edge off but never lasted long enough to give me a good nights sleep. Needless to say I havent been myself for days. A few days ago a good friend gave me something I can only describe as weapons grade ibuprofen. The pain went away, the swelling went down, and oddly enough the tooth readjusted its position and is coming in straight and no longer impacted. In other words I think I can keep it. The exciting part about this isnt the fact that I have a new tooth, its the fact that I dont have to spend over a grand getting the thing cut out. I dont have a grand to spare right now and i do not want to go back into debt.

My mouth is still a bit sore as the thing slowly wiggles into place but its nothing I cant handle without painkillers. I dislike painkillers, its that whole woozy medicine head feeling I cant stand.

I havent been able to do as much work on the film as of late due to this but im still doing casting calls and whatnot. Next weekend I want to start doing readings with the script and get the gang ready.

I was supposed to go junk shopping with the Warbunny this morning but I overslept, I guess I needed the rest. Instead im going to veg out for an hour and watch sunday morning cartoons.

Goodbye for now

I have two major debts currently pending, one to an ex girlfriend (the one thats on my credit) and one to an old roomie for giving me a leg up when i needed it most. I made money orders for both and sent them off, I dont know if the one for my roomie has been received but it should have by now and the other was sent to the city and is still pending. I really wish it would go ahead and clear, its holding me up and keeping me from making good on a few promises.

So anyways once those are dealt with im out of debt. Gonna go right back into it though, I have wisdom teeth coming in and the pain from that is getting on my nerves... silly pun.

Enough about debt, I am going to rant about something much more horrific.

I do not respond well to threats, they kinda send me into a crazy "I want to smash you with 50 legions of sardukar" rage. So when I find out that an ex and her little minions are threatening me because im dating one of their friends I get a bit pissy. I know I should just ignore it and laugh it off as some pathetic attempt to rain on my parade but there comes a time when I feel that enough is enough. I understand that people want to protect one another but im tired of being made out to be something im not. Well this time I tried something different. Rather than just be an ass I offered to talk out whatever problems were had like civil adults. Call it a hunch but I dont think it worked.

So now im left with a not so simple problem.
Boy meets girl, boy gets girl, boy and girl are happy, girls friends hate boy because boy used to date one of them and it ended badly (non violently of course), girls friends make repeated attempts to break up boy and girl, girl gets stressed, boy gets mad.

Whats a boy to do? Mind you I am still trying to be civil about it all.

Yesterday....
I was risen from my bed at 7am by an old friend and his associate from up north. They needed a place to go while in town so they hit me up for a spot. It was good catching up with Jamie-Dude. He is preparing to go off to the army (something I may not agree with but who am I to tell someone what to go do with themselves) so he had a few loose ends to take care of in town before he departs.

After spending some quality time and breaking bread with my old partner in crime I had to go off for a meeting with some of the people working for my productions company. I took my out of town friends with me. It was a short meeting and more of just me giving orders and finding out what they needed. After that I wanted to go check out a record show I heard about that my friend Melissa was vending at. I wanted to buy damn near everything she had but I cant spare a dime at the moment. You guys really should hit up rxrcds. Oh and Stephen joined us for that.

Next was my 3pm casting call at cupajoe. I now only have a few open acting slots to fill. I am really happy about that. I hope to start rehearsing a few scenes in the next two weeks. Rick the Warbunny has jumped onboard with great enthusiasm and we really need people like that.

Came home after the call around 6pm. I was exhausted from the lack of sleep and all the running around. Stephen came back with me and we worked on a few things. The new girl gave me a ring and wanted to hang out, of course I said come over. Went out with her for a bit, took her to dix hill for a scenic view of the city. To think that the most amazing veiw of raleigh is currently on the grounds of a mental institutions inmate cemetery. I love that spot. On our way back I got a call from this smoking hot eastern european girl I have been sorta having sex with for a little while now. In case you are wondering no im not cheating, im in an odd sort of open relationship. Well the eastern european girl wanted to come over, I said why not.

As far as what happened next, Its just too awesome to write about.

I passed out at 5am.

Went out last night to Flex for 120 minutes with the new girl for some drinking and awesome music. I was not disappointed.


Had to get my traditional picture with my favorite VJ.

It all started well enough, met up with my friends and caught up on everything. After about an hour of killing beers and shooting the shit a blast from my past walked into the club.


I hadnt seen Isaac in over two years, he was once my best friend. Damn good to see him again. I gave him my number, hopefully I can start hanging uot with the guy again, I do have two years worth of stories to tell him and projects to get him into. Justin was there as well, another old friend I hadnt seen in years. He didnt want his mug posted so i cropped it out.

Hanging out with Matt, Isaac, and Justin brought back alot of memories of the life I used to have. I missed that life for a moment until I walked over to my current friends.


I wouldnt trade Jynxx, Stephen, and Poe for anything. These guys actually encourage me to do some of the awesome things I do. I dont even think I would be having a film project if it wasnt for these guys. Jynxx is constantly kicking my ass in gear on this project, Stephen helps me do all of the ground work and research, and Poe... When Poe first signed onto this project he lit up. Everytime we are doing anything with it or talk about it he gets really encouraged and there is nothing more encouraging to me than seeing someone I consider an equal light up with enthusiasm and excitement about being a part of something im making.

But yea, the old and the new. Maybe 2009 is the year I take it all back.

For now I have to get ready, I have a casting call in less than an hour and im not even wearing pants.

Oh yea, did i mention I had a new girl? I guess I lucked out for once.

I just managed to get thrown out of one of the shortest relationships I have had to date. No biggie. My slump is over though, seems all of the sudden a number of people have taken an interest in me and im not sure why. I still think im a mess, in general that is.

Just had to reformat my machine, i swear nobody is allowed to touch any of my computers again and im going gestapo levels of paranoia with my security from now on. I lost a fuckload of data and i just cant risk losing any of my writing. Luckily I back things up often enough so my music, photos, and work were all saved the fate of a violent reformat. Fuckers...

I got a call yesterday from Keith, the owner and operator of Volume 11 Tavern. He is giving me Feb the 8th to hold a fund raiser event. I told Lyria about it and she ran with it. After seeing her work with Dirge Factory I know we are in good hands.

Now I know some people out there arent my biggest fans however you are all invited. To sweeten the deal I am going to be asking Dante the Gothic Magician to cut me in half on stage. If thats not enough I am willing to humiliate myself to any degree, anything to entertain you people.

If you have an act or an idea and want to be a part of this event just say the word, im willing to promote just about anything.

For now I think I have some friends coming to visit me.