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This week in the war
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May. 9th, 2008 @ 03:19 am
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Its been a great time to be me as of late.
Drunken madness, clubbing, dancing, voltaire, friends, romans, countrymen, dinosaur porn, incredible sex with beautiful girlfriend, and plenty of coffee and cigarettes.
So yea.
I am celebrating life these days.
( Have some pretty ) |
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I love impossible days
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May. 2nd, 2008 @ 12:08 pm
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I finally got the fucker
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Apr. 28th, 2008 @ 06:45 pm
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For almost a year now headphone mike has been using his superior size to evade the horror that is my sandpaper face... that is until last night. I know its kinda lame but it made me happy.
At the same time another project of mine thats been in the works for about a year is finally paying off. I had some serious setbacks in getting the needed resources together while at the same time searching for a way to preserve my complete underground state of being ( you have no idea how much of a pain in the ass it really is to own or lease property without having your name on it ) but after getting the news today that we are a go the time is finally here. I cant say i have ever really been homeless but in all honesty i havent felt like i was "home" anywhere i have lived in many years now but now thats changing. So yea i will just knock off the cryptic talk and come out and say it, as of next month i have a house.
However I do have a slight complication, i have an open bedroom i want to rent out. Finding someone to move in who fits my paranoid criteria is gonna be a bitch but im sure there are enough loonies out there that would jump at such an offer for a beautiful and cheap place to live. Anyone interested?
In other news,
Relationship is fucked but showing promise, no she isnt moving in with me... i learned that lesson and i dont think i will be living with anyone im dating for a very long time.
In keeping with my trend of writing all the god damned time I have started yet another project but this one isnt what you would call a novel. My recent rifts game inspired me to write my very own Rifts world book. Already made leaps and bounds worth of progress and in all honesty should have a completed draft ready for editing in a few months. Im thinking of submitting it to Palladium Books for the hell of it. I guess when it comes down to it the only thing i ever really showed any skill in was abstract ideas so thats what im going to do with myself. Im really looking forward to this weekends game. So far the players seem to be enthused as well.
License is gone again, gonna cost me a large chunk of loot to get it back. Apparently i didnt pay some fine i had from way back in the day and there was a recent lapse on my insurance so they figured it would be fun to demand more money from me... fucking DMV.
Now a word on the weather.
Forever and a day ago an ex of mine got me to love the idea of making and flying your own kite. I have been trying to do this for months now but everytime i have the chance and the people to share the love with the weather refuses to cooperate. I know we need the rain and all but a few nice spring days when im not busy would be a happy thing.
I am sure there is some other stuff i could be ranting about but im gonna go do something else.Bones Tunes: Ist es Gut- Rammstein & t.A.T.u. (xxx mix) |
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You say goodbye and I say hello
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Apr. 26th, 2008 @ 09:27 pm
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Life is getting geeky again.
So i started doing a weekly game of Rifts. I gathered a ton of friends interested in playing and we had our first real game last night and it was great, dont think i have laughed that hard in ages. I have been trying to get a game going for years now but the geek friends i have made just want to play lame old D&D. Fucking D&D. So yea, having a geeky habit like this will hopefully keep me out of trouble... mostly anyways.
Well i just popped the last of my morphine, its kidney stone time again. Shouldnt be long before that stuff kicks in so i wanted to go ahead and write something now while im still able to write.
Guess i have to go see a doc on monday.
You ever get horribly annoyed at the people in your life? Whenever i get off the phone with some people i tend to get really depressed/frustrated/annoyed but thats only after i have been around them for quite a bit of time. Well thats happening again with multiple people in my life and I need to fix it. Im pretty sure in the old days i just turned into a dick and constantly pointed out the things about these people that bothered me but i guess i might have finally considered that this is probably not the best course of action. I have just burned way too many bridges in my days and im kind of sick of having to change friends every so often. I really love the people around me and everyone does have their little quirks that grate on my nerves, im pretty sure i am just as bad (ok so im probably worse). Being tolerant of stupidity though, thats where i just cant seem to look away. Crazy is no problem, when people do horribly crazy things i tend to get excited, its the flat out moronic things that make me want to stab. I am way too reactive. I would like some spring rolls.
I hate being sick, kinda wanted to go out and make trouble but now i doubt i will be leaving my chair. Maybe i can get someone to carry me to trouble. Im glad i still had those painkillers, if it wasnt for that i would be having an evening in an emergency room trying to explain to a doctor that he doesnt need to scan me, just shoot me up and send me home. Of course they always have to go through the same song and dance and charge me for the whole of it just to make sure im not a junkie. Guess i cant blame them but it wouldnt be so bad if i didnt have to take the bill. Stupid human body.
Still havent been able to get a camping trip going. Oddly enough most of my gang doesnt seem to like the idea of camping and I am starting to find that to be a major conflict of interests. Guess i cant really push my beliefs on them but still... its camping, how can you not like camping? Oh yea, i |
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You are the tom to my jerry
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Apr. 15th, 2008 @ 01:31 pm
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So about every day i end up driving to the same gas station to buy smokes. Well something has changed in the last month about my smoke buying trips. More often then not these days there is someone outside the gas station begging for change. No the usual homeless guys either, these people seem reasonably dressed and usually are just in need of gas money. I help out when I can and i always make sure that they actually buy gas with whatever i can spare them and so far they always have.
Its just really sad to see so many normal people struggling just to keep their cars fueled.
So i buy groceries pretty often and i have begun to notice a dramatic increase in various food items. The cheap shit is starting to cost as much as the regular stuff and the regular stuff in some cases is starting to cost twice as much.
Its not just food and gas either.
I have noticed that the hubs of commerce arent quite as populated as they usually are. Not that i go shopping all that often but thanks to my paranoia i tend to be very aware of my surroundings wherever i end up.
For side money i work as a freelance IT specialist but as of late i havent been able to find any jobs. I have one lined up for next month but usually when i have a car at my disposal I am doing one to two a week. I have to admit im living a bit off of savings at the moment and it will probably take up to a year before i see any other source of income in my life.
I have heard the word recession thrown around quite a bit these days and i guess i am finally starting to see it.
I had planned a backyard microfarm this year, perhaps i should see about getting more of the community involved in such a feat. If anyone has any land at their disposal and feels like undertaking an interesting project let me know and we can setup some kind of trade system.
As far as the gas problem goes maybe i should get one of those scooters. Problem is i usually need to haul things and those piles of garbage arent big on that idea. I rode on the back of one once and the thing could hardly get past 15 mph.
As far as work goes my partner is overly motivated so im pretty sure we will think of something. Going it alone was always a bad idea, i guess im the kind of guy who needs someone there to compete with or i tend to get distracted.
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Such a busy time in my life.
Its been a solid week of adventure and i guess i cant really complain. Seems for once nothing major is going wrong for me and oddly enough im pretty happy.
So I do have one newish project up my sleeve. I have to setup a school. As in recently i discovered I had a pressing need to be able to issue certifications to some of the people around me. Today i spent a bit of time going over all of the laws involved with such an undertaking and it really wont be that difficult. I am going to have to jump through a few hoops to make it 100 percent legit but in the end i will be a one man walking talking academy able to issue certifications in various fields. The thing about it is i cant think of what to call this ethereal institute of higher learning. Since it only exists on paper and wont be officially recognized by anyone other than the federal government i guess i could call it anything i wanted. Sure this may sound like some kind of con but in my opinion most schools of higher learning are, doesnt matter if its a con or not so long as i keep it legal. One of these days i might just stop trying to find the easy way out of a problem but certainly not today.
Social life is good, seems Mike and I are back in our tradition of going out to eat every sunday before he has to go back to ECU. Its so awesome to have my best friend back. We have really started to hang out more on the weekends and always on sundays. When im not trying to glue a rape wig on the mans head we tend to have some of the most enlightening convos, the man really does know his clinical psych. Well enough about that boytoy.
I live next door to mr ford.
Still dating the same girl, no complaints other than never seeing her enough.
Not sure if i wanna write about anything else at this time. Maybe later.
Apr. 14th, 2008 @ 06:22 pm
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Its been a week of mental disorders... oddly enough im not talking about my own.
I started trying to go back to my old club scene, not sure if that was a good idea or not. Some people have greeted me with open arms and seemed to really miss me, but most just acted like i wasnt even there. Maybe im just not being recognized but i somehow doubt thats the case.
Kinda reminded me why i stopped going,
Had to leave legends early, a very good friend of mine took ill in the middle of the night and we had to get her out of there. She is doing much better now. Was a bit of a scare though.
Anyways something creepy did happen. The moment i walked into the dance room a strange female walked up to me and said "hello bones". She was oddly familiar to me but i couldnt figure out who she was. She did the same thing to HP Mike and he also didnt know her identity. Well a bit later Mike and i were chatting with danny boy outside and she walked up to us and tried to talk to Danny. He asked for her name, she said Jolee.... Mike and i looked at each other and in unison screamed and ran away because we then knew why she seemed to familiar. This girl is possibly the most insane human being any of us have met to date, she makes me look perfectly normal. We then realized that we left a man behind. We dove back in and grabbed danny and pulled him to safety.
It took a bit of talking but we managed to explain to him that she was way too unstable to be around for any length of time. This just encouraged the man though, aparently he has a thing for batshit insane girls.
Well danny calls me up this past evening and asks me to come be his wingman because he has a date with this girl.... i agreed knowing that at least the night would be entertaining.
There was just too much madness for me to even begin writing it down, lets just say the evening ended with her wondering off and us unable to follow her. Danny thinks he is in love. I think that when i ask someone what kind of music they like and they answer with "guitar hero" that they need to be removed from the gene pool.
I have a lot more to say but i think im gonna keep my mouth shut.
Oh, one more thing. Im back with my girlie, we just love each other too much to be apart.
Apr. 10th, 2008 @ 03:09 am
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What a weekend,
Friday night i went drinking with friends. Saturday morning (afternoon actually) we awoke to our stomachs growling. Danny boy suggested some fish and chips so we hopped in the car and took off for that "London Fish and Chips" place in Cary. That was a bad idea.
We walked into the place, it smelled pretty ripe but that didnt stop us. We strolled past a few tables to the counter, i couldnt help but notice the parallel cuts on the counter girls arm. She seemded familiar to me as well so i know that couldnt be good. Took her forever to take our very simple order (we just wanted 3 orders of fish and chips and 3 drinks, not rocket science) and she seemed completely out of it. Well after we paid it took her a few more minutes to notice we were still standing there waiting for our cups. After she finally forked over our cups we walked to the soda machine, damn near everything on it was labeled "out of order". Next to it were two jugs, one said sweet tea, the other unsweet tea. Of course we went for the sweet tea and of course they werent labeled correctly and it wasnt until we sat down that i took my first gulp of bitter day old tea. Those fuckers. We poured our cups down the trash and tried the other jug. it was sweetened tea but really not that good. I thought about informing the cracked out countergirl of her error but chose not too, after all we suffered, why shouldnt the rest of those people. We returned to our seats and waited for about 20 minutes before our food was brought to us. Half of the "chips" were way over cooked, the other half werent bad though. The fish was pretty good so at least i didnt go postal. Another thing i noticed, we were in a place that tried to be themed towards the brits, pictures of famous brits lined the walls (mainly beatles members) and those british flags were everywhere but the music they were playing was from 96.1, i expected to hear the beatles/sex pistols/insert other brit band here but instead we got 20 year old hillbilly rock.
It sucks that this place is garbage, it had so much potential. Oh and the prices were wayyyy too steep.
Anyways after breakfast/lunch/garbage i went home and picked the place up a bit. Got a call from my ex so i went to pick her up. Its weird hanging out with your now ex girlfriend, we didnt do anything different from when we were going out, still making out and having that amazing passionate stuff that you people dont need to hear about. Still madly in love with one another, im starting to not understand why we broke up. She stayed the night, i made food, there was lots of love. Took her home this morning, that felt awkward. I just want to see her again, and again, and maybe even more again. Nobody fits into my pink fuzzy slippers like she does.
I think im having dinner with my headphone mike today, i got a lot to talk to the man about. Sometime tonight i have to pickup some friends who are getting back into town. Dont really have anything else planned for this sunday.
I do have a plan for the near future though, since the drought finally broke and i have access to a decent chunk of land once again im gonna be planting some food. I gotta refresh myself on all the details but im pretty sure i can save a nice pile of money by growing a chunk of my food supply myself and trading the excess for other little products.
This time though, i am gonna try to learn the art of having a micro vineyard. Always wanted to make my own wine and it cant be that hard to learn. I could bottle my own brand "Bones's backyard wine, i grew this shit and now you gotta drink it fucker". Might be fun, too bad i couldnt sell it... high school kids would love it. I have been needing to learn a new skill.
Anyone wanna go fly a kite with me this week?
Apr. 6th, 2008 @ 03:41 pm
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My trip went well by the way, guess i havent really wanted to talk about it. Figured i would rather wait til I can show off the fruit before i brag about the labor.
So im single again. It probably was the smart move on her part, for the first time in my life i felt like someones bad habit. As far as my feelings on the matter go i know i wasnt really compatible with her and there were things about her that bothered me to no end but i love the girl so it didnt really matter. Maybe she was my bad habit too but thats one addiction i could live with. Better than smoking and sweet tea.
Well upon my return i went to see an old friend. Drove out to north raleigh and met up with this crazy guy.
I have been through hell and back with this guy so many years ago, good to see his music is really turning into something. I think im gonna start hanging out with the man more often, i had forgotten how much fun he could be even if he is still straight edge.
Tonight i think im gonna get shitty with danny-boy and "napkin". Yes, his name is "napkin", at least thats the one i gave him.
I took a look at my camera today to see what i have been shooting as of late, i found a really sad pic of me and the ex, dont think im gonna post that. I also found a really good picture of a very dear friend of mine who pretty much has been the brighter side of my life as of late.
I thought it was pretty.
I hate driving the olds, it spudders when you give it gas, the drivers side door wont open from the inside, and its pretty big on stalling in the middle of I-40. At least its something for now.
Oh yea, company is coming. Guess i better get ready.
Apr. 4th, 2008 @ 10:36 pm
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The best kind too.
I just watched one of the greatest things to ever happen to me drive away. I am never going to stop caring for that girl. All this one the eve of the greatest thing i have ever done. Funny how that works. I should be overly thrilled about my book deal but all i can think of is her.
Time wounds all heals.
Apr. 4th, 2008 @ 01:09 am
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Big post.
First off,
I managed to spend a bit of time last week with my last old friend. The only man from my glory days i have managed to stay friends with. He is doing really well for himself and i am proud of the guy. Our schedules conflict so i dont really get too many chances to see the guy but every time i do it is a happy occasion.
Last friday night i went to my very good friend Syl's going away party. She just moved to texas this past weekend. Syl is a very dear human being and i am gonna miss her, she always brightened my day and i never once had a bad time in her company.
Even had my Headphone Mike with me.
Drinking, playing music, frisky dingo, good friends and good times.
I hope to try and stay in touch with the rest of the friends i have made in that circle but i have to admit that without Syl around i feel a bit diminished. She was unique and more alive then most of the people i know.
I dont really take that many pictures anymore but im glad to have at least snapped those few.
I want to talk about something else now. I have a secret. Its one of those big ones. Its not exactly my secret but it fell into my lap and now i have to figure out what to do with it. Im pretty sure i could use this secret to achieve some kind of personal gain but im pretty sure that would fuck a few people over, I could sit on it and just pretend i never heard a thing and hope for the best, or i could just do the right thing. Dont worry, this doesnt have a thing to do with anyone who reads this thing so dont freak out. I guess there is some advantage to living two lives, you always have uninvolved people to bounce these kinds of issues off of.
I am however having some issues of my own, there is something very wrong and i cant figure out what it is, more of this feeling thats being backed by things i have observed. maybe i do know what it is and im just not willing to accept it at this time. Kinda funny how that works.
Im leaving in a few days for the first business trip i have had in god knows how long. Going to be gone for about a day and unfortunately im going it alone. Thats gonna suck but at the same time any chance to get the hell outta here for a bit is time well spent.
I think im going to have company in a bit, need to shower. I smell terrible.
Mar. 31st, 2008 @ 03:42 pm
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Man... What a crazy time in life.
I could spend the next day explaining in detail how interesting and batshit nuts my life is, even have pictures to document but that would reveal too much and i cant get past my own paranoia. I do still have plenty to talk about.
Its no secret that i love to cook and these days im always trying to learn new techniques and recipes. Well i think i finally have tofu figured out. I always hated the stuff no matter who cooked it, just seemed like i was chewing on some kind of moist sponge that would take on the flavor of whatever was near it. Well a while back i finally made some i liked and over the past few days i have vastly improved upon it. I can now make tofu that tastes like and has a similar texture to various meats without using any meat product. The things i do when im dating a vegetarian. However making a graham cracker crust for a cheesecake from scratch is still beyond my current abilities. Fuckers never cooperate.
I think i may have found another business partner, someone who actually has an incredible head for the game and a strong desire to get out of the 9 to 5 workforce. Crossing my fingers there.
So the girlfriend and i had a bit of a rough patch this past weekend but i think thats past us now. However she said something to me today thats just been bugging me. I told her if she ever did anything like that again that i would do something to intentionally hurt her (i was only half serious and she didnt really do anything wrong). She told me in turn that no matter what she would never intentionally hurt me. Kinda felt like a kick in the nuts. Made me take a close look at myself, most of the people in my life that have hurt me didnt do it intentionally (i said most, not all) however most of the people in my life i have hurt i have done intentionally (well im sure some of the damage i have dealt was an unintentional byproduct of some other scheme). Maybe my inability to let things go is my real problem. The feeling that someone has one up on me just consumes me until i can do something about it, childish i know but i just cant find a way around it. Every time i start to notice this thing in me and how much of a problem it causes me i try to find out something new about it but i have never gone looking for a real cure to this personality disorder. Maybe its time.
Other than that one moment of self analysis i had an incredible evening with the woman. Sorry, no details there either, not your business.
Well my social time during the week has begun to change, instead of just goofing off with friends i am about to start working with them. I want to retire one of these days after all. The time to start running the world from behind the scenes has begun.
Mar. 25th, 2008 @ 11:07 pm
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Happy zombie jesus day.
What a weekend.
I woke up this morning covered in cats and friends. Kinda odd how i came to be here but i guess i cant complain. Friday afternoon the girl ended our relationship so i was pretty unhappy with life. My friends took me out for sushi and rum to cheer me up, oddly enough it worked. Woke up Saturday to a bad hangover. The girl got ahold of me and told me she wanted to talk Saturday night and that she felt she made a mistake. What a life.
Not sure what im gonna get into today but im sure it wont be kosher.
Mar. 23rd, 2008 @ 12:31 pm
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Made me smile...
Anyways, i have been having a great week. Things are getting done, new friends have been made, and everything has been falling into place. Well they say all good things have to come to an end.
I already miss her.
Mar. 21st, 2008 @ 03:34 pm
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| » Happy steak and BJ day |
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My civ kicks your civs ass.
I had a birthday a few days ago, went out to dinner with my lady and some friends. Kinda made me miss the days when there were grand celebrations on my b-day. Mostly though i think i miss the days when a birthday felt like it actually mattered, now it just feels like "oh shit, im another year older". I was still happy to be around friends breaking bread and swapping stories. I wish Maria would have come, i miss her. I spent the rest of the b-day evening with the girlie, she has a way of brightening my day no matter what.
So being 27.. I dont feel any older and i still look 23 so im told. Being 26 was pretty fun though, well at least it was better than crazy 25. Had some zany adventures and a whole lot of being all over the map. Plenty of disappointments though, had at least one person i really liked and respected utterly stab me in the back, that sent me on a paranoid rampage to the point where i dont let anyone know where i live. I dont even use my own mailing address, i have everything sent to a friends place who doesnt know where i live. No i dont think everyone is out to get me and they are watching me, i just choose to never have to fight a battle on my own ground again. I kinda suck at defending anyway.
Did get my hands on the latest nine inch nails album "Ghosts I - IV". Its worth a listen, completely instrumental, and very beautiful.
Well im off for an interesting weekend filled with god knows what.
QOTD
"just because you can catch it doesnt mean you should eat it"
Mar. 14th, 2008 @ 01:59 pm
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We had a power outage the other night at my place.
I ended up beign stuck at home with just amber. I do like Amber but being cooped up with her for 5 hours without the distractions electricity provides wasnt what i would call a good night. I couldnt even read in peace. Oddly enough though during one of her random rants about pop culture things i could care less about i started thinking about something. I started to miss the time in my life when i lived with my significant other. I am not talking about syd though, that was more like having the girl you fuck sleep over every night and eat your food. I am not saying i would want to jump back down that road either, i have been pretty happy with the semi bachelors life i have held onto for several years now. I am very happy with the girl im currently dating but I know that taking that road would be disastrous for us both. Maybe the dream of building the nuclear family isnt something i should have ever strived for. I guess i am a bit too insane to properly handle one anyway.
I guess i know what its like to really share your life with someone and i think that memory is probably all i will ever need. I am happy with my life now and that should be all that matters.
I decided to take a step away from one of my friends this past week. All my life there have been guys that pop up and wanted to tag a long so long as their were "hot girls" in the plan. They never really bring anything into the plan other than an annoying gripe about not getting laid. I feel bad for these guys but I think i have just gotten sick of it. Whenever the plan goes a direction that doesnt agree with them they instantly bitch about a sausage fest and leave. Well im just not going to put up with that anymore, if a friend only wants to come out and hang out with you because girls might be there then they really arent my friend, just some doosh who wants to use me for the little black book and provide little to nothing in return. I am not a pimp... well not one anymore.
I got some amazing news yesterday in an email, its soo amazing im afraid if i talk about it i will jynx it so im going to shut up now.
In other news, garfeild minus garfield is hilarious. Ikariam is addictive. Season 3 of venture bros comes out soon. I think i have a birthday coming up and thats scary. New book project is coming along. Everywhere i go i end up running into someone i know no matter what town it is. If you plant the corpse of a police officer in the ground a glazed donut tree will not grow from it. I ran out of minutes on my phone and havent gotten around to buying more, i probably will before weeks end. I still havent been drunk all year.
Now i must ingest some food.
Ta
Mar. 6th, 2008 @ 05:08 pm
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1. Go to www.photobucket.com (don't sign in)
2. Type in your answer to the question in the "search" box
3. Use only the first page
4. Copy the html and paste for the answer.
1. What's your first name?
2.What school do you go to?
3. What is your relationship status?
4. What is your favourite colour?
5. Who is your celebrity crush?
6. What band are you listening to right now?
7. What is your favourite movie?
8. What is your favourite disney character?
9. Name an alcoholic beverage
10. where is your dream vacation?
11. What is your favourite dessert?
12 What do you want to be when you grow up?
13. What do you love most in life?
14. One word to describe yourself?
enjoy
Feb. 25th, 2008 @ 09:39 pm
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| » All about the failboat... i mean integra |
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Due to the totally psychotic nature of my life i find i need to take a trip the hell outta this place from time to time and have a little adventure. I had planned to hit up Tennessee for a weekend long event starting today. I grabbed a crew of like minded friends, resources, wheels, and all the other fine print. Well at the last minute mike bailed on us. I know, what a pansy. Well that wasnt going to stop us. I grabbed the Oracle and Jay Leno and set off.
Had a quick breakfast a Bojangles and started blasting soem Muse along the highway.
About the time i was projecting my usual middle finger out the window as we were passing Greensboro we noticed a noise coming from the drivers side front tire. It wasnt a happy noise but it went away and we just fiugred it was something on the road. It wasnt. Halfway through Winston Salem we lost control of the vehicle and were forced to make an emergency stop on the highway.
Its a depressing sight to see, stuck on the road while so many people pass you by. Lucky for us Jay Leno had a triple A card so we could get a tow to the triple A service center. While we were sitting and waiting for the truck to pick us up a cop pulled in behind us and asked if we needed help, we said we were fine and had a guy coming to get us, he then asked us if we wanted him to wait with us and if we felt safe. This cop boggled my mind. Must have been trying to get out of doing something else i guess. We told him to fuck off and he did.
Tow truck finally arrived and hauled us to the service center. We already knew that we had broke an axle so at least we knew what we were getting into. Well the shop was about to close so they couldnt do a damn thing for us. I had to use the bathroom while in there and i discovered something that brought me back..
Thats a chick publication, some of the most hilarious christian propaganda i have ever read in my life. I used to collect these back when i was in high school and at one point i had the full set til an ex of mine ran off with them. I thought they stopped making them but here i found one on the edge of the sink. i had to snag it.
After the piss we then sat down and knew our trip was pretty much fucked. We knew we either had to stay in winston or try and get ourselves and the car back to the raleigh area. I know people in the area but i didnt have any of their numbers on hand so that meant going back to raleigh. Lucky for us Jay Leno had the plus account, free towing up to 100 miles. We then crammed in the truck, loaded the car and set course for home.
Go team Failure.
So the night was a total failure. We missed the good stuff and now we are just sitting around playing guitar hero. I kinda hate my life right about now and wish i was drunk. I dont even do drugs but if someone put something in front of me i would jump on it, thats the kind of horrid mood im in. I wish my girlie was around.
Feb. 22nd, 2008 @ 09:58 pm
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I spent the entire day writing. I got as far as i wanted to in one day but didnt want to stop writing so i figured why not write in here. I have come to a new conclusion, if they dont like my first novel i will just write another and keep writing them until one of them is worth reading, someone once told me if you throw enough shit against a wall some of it is bound to stick. As intelligent as people tell me i am i might one day be lucky enough to pull out a shred of genius.
I guess my restored ego refuses to think of myself as a failed writer and just wants to keep trying, why the hell not. Since i dont have a great need for money for a long while I guess i do have the time to devote myself to writing. Maybe i have always been drawn to the artistic types because there is a bit of an artist in me, maybe i ask too may questions. My life may be just a bit too absurd to ever be a novel so i am taking a much different approach and even altering my style a bit. Might be a fun read once everything comes together. Never tried this without knowing exactly where i was going with it so it should be fun.
There is trouble in paradise. Lisa and I are having some issues but i hope they can be worked out. Its weird tho, we love each other very much, neither of us is screwing the other over, it just seems to be a difference of lifestyle thats causing a wedge in our little bliss. I dont want to go into details.
This weekend should be grand, i have arranged an escape of Durhams gravity and plotted a course west. Im off to do one of my favorite things i ever do only this time i can have random and rampant sex with everyone i encounter. At least destroying things is still a valid option. I love Conventions. Pictures coming soon.
Well i think i have a grilled cheese sandwich with my name on it somewhere in my kitchen and i am feeling a bit hungry so im going to go munch and probably write some more.
Ta.
Feb. 20th, 2008 @ 05:54 pm
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Well i found i enjoyed writing about the current political clusterfuck so i thought i would share a few more insights and thoughts. Then im gonna talk about me, pictures too.
So it would seem i favor Obama as a dem and Ron Paul as a rep. This doesnt mean they have my full support, its just that with my current information they seem to be the lesser of all the evils. Then comes the problem of voting. Im going to talk about election fraud now.
Back in 2000 when Bush ran against Gore does anyone remember that whole shit storm that happened in florida? Didnt gore win the election but then for some reason our judges gave it to bush? Wasnt that a bit fucked? At the same time in florida the people in charge of the voting system were not exactly impartial. For some reason the state handed over the regulation of the voting process in florida to some company called DBT. Kinda weird huh. Weirder still was the head of DBT was a major republican supporter. Then that Catherine Harris hooker and her little unreported scandal, seems she was given several lists of voters by DBT to scrub, people like exfelons and the like. Well she ended up having many more scrubbed from the list like people who shared b-days with those ex felons. I think around 60,000 were removed when it was only supposed to be 8000. Who is catherine harris you ask? She was the head of the bush campaign in florida. The cunt got into congress shortly after. Thats the story i know the most about thanks to the internet. Again in 2004 there was more election dooshbaggery. UN elections inspectors were denied access to our elections by order of Gee Dub himself. Those guys were empowered by the UN to ensure that election fraud doesnt happen. Kinda fucked up. I remember reading about a county in ohio with 700 registered voters that turned in 5000 votes for bush. There was a pile of other really fucked up tid bits in both elections. Kinda makes you wonder what the point it. If there are enough of these little frauds all around the spectrum how can any of us feel that our votes mean shit? If your vote can be cast aside randomly and countered by god knows how many fake votes then really what is the fucking point of voting. I wanted to see something done about that but nothing ever was. So i have concluded that it really doesnt fucking matter if i vote or not, no matter what some group of pricks will come along and see how much they can cheat their way into power. I guess its only human but for fucks sake i thought we were shooting for a higher standard in our leadership. When scum of the earth like myself can walk around feeling cleaner than these assholes you know that it just doesnt fucking matter.
The whole thing pisses me off. Even if Obama and Paul turn out to be the real deal then i know neither of them will be elected. After all if you are the real deal then i doubt you can out cheat the cheaters. Well this got me thinking too, if everyone is just an evil cheating greedy sonofacrotchfuckassbitch then my friends, i think i have finally discovered a line of work that suits me. Time to get more involved.
Now im going to talk about me.
I got another disappointment today, my second rejection letter for my book. Its really discouraging and kind of has me wondering if my work is really worth it. The one person i let read the whole fully edited version seemed to think it was the best thing since sliced bread but she was a bit biased. I think what i need is for someone who has a few issues with me to read the thing and tell me what they think. Shouldnt be too difficult to find someone who has a grudge against me lol. Any volunteers? I know some of you still read this.
I promised pictures. here goes.
I shaved my goat.
It really made me look younger, please ignore my forehead zit.
Next stop is something pretty
Oddly enough this car has alot to do with me though i wont say what or why.
You would think the image i was about to show you was some sort of construction site for an office building or something like that, no its much more sinister.
A few days ago i visted on of the most complex underground facilities of pure evil i have ever witnessed. While still under construction i was still blown away by the scope of it. I was not permited to photograph most of the facility but they did let me keep this one shot.
And now im off to see the wizard.
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HP Mike, i need your help with a german translation. Im trying to order these cheeseburgers in a can but i cant figure out how it works since i cant speak german and im too lazy to try and do one of those shitty online translations. Give us a call brother.
Feb. 14th, 2008 @ 02:07 pm
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