drive through abortion clinic (![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} augustusbones) wrote,@ 2008-03-25 23:07:00 |
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I am singing for absolution
Man... What a crazy time in life.
I could spend the next day explaining in detail how interesting and batshit nuts my life is, even have pictures to document but that would reveal too much and i cant get past my own paranoia. I do still have plenty to talk about.
Its no secret that i love to cook and these days im always trying to learn new techniques and recipes. Well i think i finally have tofu figured out. I always hated the stuff no matter who cooked it, just seemed like i was chewing on some kind of moist sponge that would take on the flavor of whatever was near it. Well a while back i finally made some i liked and over the past few days i have vastly improved upon it. I can now make tofu that tastes like and has a similar texture to various meats without using any meat product. The things i do when im dating a vegetarian. However making a graham cracker crust for a cheesecake from scratch is still beyond my current abilities. Fuckers never cooperate.
I think i may have found another business partner, someone who actually has an incredible head for the game and a strong desire to get out of the 9 to 5 workforce. Crossing my fingers there.
So the girlfriend and i had a bit of a rough patch this past weekend but i think thats past us now. However she said something to me today thats just been bugging me. I told her if she ever did anything like that again that i would do something to intentionally hurt her (i was only half serious and she didnt really do anything wrong). She told me in turn that no matter what she would never intentionally hurt me. Kinda felt like a kick in the nuts. Made me take a close look at myself, most of the people in my life that have hurt me didnt do it intentionally (i said most, not all) however most of the people in my life i have hurt i have done intentionally (well im sure some of the damage i have dealt was an unintentional byproduct of some other scheme). Maybe my inability to let things go is my real problem. The feeling that someone has one up on me just consumes me until i can do something about it, childish i know but i just cant find a way around it. Every time i start to notice this thing in me and how much of a problem it causes me i try to find out something new about it but i have never gone looking for a real cure to this personality disorder. Maybe its time.
Other than that one moment of self analysis i had an incredible evening with the woman. Sorry, no details there either, not your business.
Well my social time during the week has begun to change, instead of just goofing off with friends i am about to start working with them. I want to retire one of these days after all. The time to start running the world from behind the scenes has begun.
Man... What a crazy time in life.
I could spend the next day explaining in detail how interesting and batshit nuts my life is, even have pictures to document but that would reveal too much and i cant get past my own paranoia. I do still have plenty to talk about.
Its no secret that i love to cook and these days im always trying to learn new techniques and recipes. Well i think i finally have tofu figured out. I always hated the stuff no matter who cooked it, just seemed like i was chewing on some kind of moist sponge that would take on the flavor of whatever was near it. Well a while back i finally made some i liked and over the past few days i have vastly improved upon it. I can now make tofu that tastes like and has a similar texture to various meats without using any meat product. The things i do when im dating a vegetarian. However making a graham cracker crust for a cheesecake from scratch is still beyond my current abilities. Fuckers never cooperate.
I think i may have found another business partner, someone who actually has an incredible head for the game and a strong desire to get out of the 9 to 5 workforce. Crossing my fingers there.
So the girlfriend and i had a bit of a rough patch this past weekend but i think thats past us now. However she said something to me today thats just been bugging me. I told her if she ever did anything like that again that i would do something to intentionally hurt her (i was only half serious and she didnt really do anything wrong). She told me in turn that no matter what she would never intentionally hurt me. Kinda felt like a kick in the nuts. Made me take a close look at myself, most of the people in my life that have hurt me didnt do it intentionally (i said most, not all) however most of the people in my life i have hurt i have done intentionally (well im sure some of the damage i have dealt was an unintentional byproduct of some other scheme). Maybe my inability to let things go is my real problem. The feeling that someone has one up on me just consumes me until i can do something about it, childish i know but i just cant find a way around it. Every time i start to notice this thing in me and how much of a problem it causes me i try to find out something new about it but i have never gone looking for a real cure to this personality disorder. Maybe its time.
Other than that one moment of self analysis i had an incredible evening with the woman. Sorry, no details there either, not your business.
Well my social time during the week has begun to change, instead of just goofing off with friends i am about to start working with them. I want to retire one of these days after all. The time to start running the world from behind the scenes has begun.
