drive through abortion clinic (![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} augustusbones) wrote,@ 2008-03-31 15:42:00 |
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The damned stand ready
Big post.
First off,
I managed to spend a bit of time last week with my last old friend. The only man from my glory days i have managed to stay friends with. He is doing really well for himself and i am proud of the guy. Our schedules conflict so i dont really get too many chances to see the guy but every time i do it is a happy occasion.
Last friday night i went to my very good friend Syl's going away party. She just moved to texas this past weekend. Syl is a very dear human being and i am gonna miss her, she always brightened my day and i never once had a bad time in her company.
Even had my Headphone Mike with me.
Drinking, playing music, frisky dingo, good friends and good times.
I hope to try and stay in touch with the rest of the friends i have made in that circle but i have to admit that without Syl around i feel a bit diminished. She was unique and more alive then most of the people i know.
I dont really take that many pictures anymore but im glad to have at least snapped those few.
I want to talk about something else now. I have a secret. Its one of those big ones. Its not exactly my secret but it fell into my lap and now i have to figure out what to do with it. Im pretty sure i could use this secret to achieve some kind of personal gain but im pretty sure that would fuck a few people over, I could sit on it and just pretend i never heard a thing and hope for the best, or i could just do the right thing. Dont worry, this doesnt have a thing to do with anyone who reads this thing so dont freak out. I guess there is some advantage to living two lives, you always have uninvolved people to bounce these kinds of issues off of.
I am however having some issues of my own, there is something very wrong and i cant figure out what it is, more of this feeling thats being backed by things i have observed. maybe i do know what it is and im just not willing to accept it at this time. Kinda funny how that works.
Im leaving in a few days for the first business trip i have had in god knows how long. Going to be gone for about a day and unfortunately im going it alone. Thats gonna suck but at the same time any chance to get the hell outta here for a bit is time well spent.
I think im going to have company in a bit, need to shower. I smell terrible.
Big post.
First off,
I managed to spend a bit of time last week with my last old friend. The only man from my glory days i have managed to stay friends with. He is doing really well for himself and i am proud of the guy. Our schedules conflict so i dont really get too many chances to see the guy but every time i do it is a happy occasion.
Last friday night i went to my very good friend Syl's going away party. She just moved to texas this past weekend. Syl is a very dear human being and i am gonna miss her, she always brightened my day and i never once had a bad time in her company.
Even had my Headphone Mike with me.
Drinking, playing music, frisky dingo, good friends and good times.
I hope to try and stay in touch with the rest of the friends i have made in that circle but i have to admit that without Syl around i feel a bit diminished. She was unique and more alive then most of the people i know.
I dont really take that many pictures anymore but im glad to have at least snapped those few.
I want to talk about something else now. I have a secret. Its one of those big ones. Its not exactly my secret but it fell into my lap and now i have to figure out what to do with it. Im pretty sure i could use this secret to achieve some kind of personal gain but im pretty sure that would fuck a few people over, I could sit on it and just pretend i never heard a thing and hope for the best, or i could just do the right thing. Dont worry, this doesnt have a thing to do with anyone who reads this thing so dont freak out. I guess there is some advantage to living two lives, you always have uninvolved people to bounce these kinds of issues off of.
I am however having some issues of my own, there is something very wrong and i cant figure out what it is, more of this feeling thats being backed by things i have observed. maybe i do know what it is and im just not willing to accept it at this time. Kinda funny how that works.
Im leaving in a few days for the first business trip i have had in god knows how long. Going to be gone for about a day and unfortunately im going it alone. Thats gonna suck but at the same time any chance to get the hell outta here for a bit is time well spent.
I think im going to have company in a bit, need to shower. I smell terrible.
